dont go looking for donkeys when God has destiny planned for u
my lj looks like shit right now im sry i cant figure the damn thing out so watever. anyways theres not much to say except im in a really really bad/weird mood and i jsut want things to DIE only bc yea. yesterday was good i have no idea where this mood is coming from so yea. yesterday i stayed up and never went to bed and so this morning i went over to amandas house and chilled with her them i made my infamous fruit pizza hmmm and my aunt came and we were in a hurry so yea. finished the pizza at my gmas house then ate my fave dumplings and mashed potatoes. i ate in the front room and talked to my aunt who just got out of the hospital. she has to use a walker now bc of her knees and i just felt so bad. i love her and shes been thru a lot this past year. her daughter died last year then her grandkids got taken away. my cousin jeramy is north dakota or somewhere with his dad and then her grand daugter shelby got sent away with her dad in maryland? i think idk so yea and then her being in the hospital idk i fear she wont live long. i learned that when u lose some1 that u cared for and loved and revolved ur life around that ur will to live slowly dissolves away and u have nothing left and soon ur just cold and in a coffin buried 15ft deep or something.
wow that was bright and cheery sry bout that. anyways, i just chilled around and chatted it up with my family and that was fun. came home and talked my mom into buyin me the notebook and other movies if i go to church iwth her. so i went to church with her, the whole time i was staring deeply and lettin my thoughts wonder. omgz the pastor was so fucking hot and he captivated me with his love and they way he spoke. the sermon was about how ppl are always asking god for lil things like oh god help me pay the bills. and then he spoke about how solomon was looking for his fathers donkeys and god told him to stop looking for the lil things and look for his destiny so yea it was great. the pastor is sooo hot and that helped alot. i kept falling asleep during the sermon and his wife kept looking at me which made me feel guilty and yea. then they had this get together afterwards and we all ate and talked.
i drove home and got online a bit then fell fast asleep.
woke up today at 11ish to get the plate of food my mom was handing me. she left and i started eating and sleeping lol. put the plate down and fell back asleep. woke up every now and then. woke up again and 3ish chatted it up with charissa and i was in a lousy mood all day so i decided i just wanted to sleep the day away.then fell back asleep after 4ish. woke up again at 6:30ish and yea ive been up ever since. got online a bit messed with my layout fucked it up and then started watchin anywhere but here its a good movie but i didnt finish it so yea here i am.im gonna go now again bc im still in a lousy mood so watever i hate james and theres nothing else i can do its been the 5th day since hes been here and nothings happening so yea who gives a fly fuck anymore
I feel:
| sad
wow that was bright and cheery sry bout that. anyways, i just chilled around and chatted it up with my family and that was fun. came home and talked my mom into buyin me the notebook and other movies if i go to church iwth her. so i went to church with her, the whole time i was staring deeply and lettin my thoughts wonder. omgz the pastor was so fucking hot and he captivated me with his love and they way he spoke. the sermon was about how ppl are always asking god for lil things like oh god help me pay the bills. and then he spoke about how solomon was looking for his fathers donkeys and god told him to stop looking for the lil things and look for his destiny so yea it was great. the pastor is sooo hot and that helped alot. i kept falling asleep during the sermon and his wife kept looking at me which made me feel guilty and yea. then they had this get together afterwards and we all ate and talked.
i drove home and got online a bit then fell fast asleep.
woke up today at 11ish to get the plate of food my mom was handing me. she left and i started eating and sleeping lol. put the plate down and fell back asleep. woke up every now and then. woke up again and 3ish chatted it up with charissa and i was in a lousy mood all day so i decided i just wanted to sleep the day away.then fell back asleep after 4ish. woke up again at 6:30ish and yea ive been up ever since. got online a bit messed with my layout fucked it up and then started watchin anywhere but here its a good movie but i didnt finish it so yea here i am.im gonna go now again bc im still in a lousy mood so watever i hate james and theres nothing else i can do its been the 5th day since hes been here and nothings happening so yea who gives a fly fuck anymore
I feel:
| sad