Its time I do it
Just a quick update. I feel like I have to do this. Its necessary for me and possibly our friendship. I'm letting go - of alex and this whole situation. Its gonna be hard but I can do it and I know its what needs to be done. In the moments when I know that its okay and I'll survive this I feel this unbelievable peace, love and happiness. Thats something I havent felt in a while. It feels so amazing.