One step forward and two steps back
That's really how i feel.... He text me tuesday night telling me he missed me then he rang me and we spoke on the phone for ages and he told me how he felt etc....that he made a mistake and royally fucked things up and that he realised this new life he made for himself wasn't all it was cracked up to be and that he wanted to be with me and share things with me again. We both agreed to take things slow....i told him i still loved him and he said the same back to me.....i just don't get it though...he seems to be not making much effort now?!?! Am i wanting too much? should i give him more space? God i miss him so much and truely want to be with him but i just don't want to get hurt again:( I so want to be there and help him and be someone he can talk to.
I don't really know what to do....i feel myself sinking into this depression again and i don't like it...I don't really know how to stop it this time....the only thing that makes me happy is him right now and it's just too much for him...or i'm not good enough? i don't know anymore....i need to get away from everything and just be on my own...
I really miss him ad wish he would just call:(............i truely thought he meant all those things he said on the phone....i asked him so many times if that was what he wanted and he said yes!
Why?:(
I don't really know what to do....i feel myself sinking into this depression again and i don't like it...I don't really know how to stop it this time....the only thing that makes me happy is him right now and it's just too much for him...or i'm not good enough? i don't know anymore....i need to get away from everything and just be on my own...
I really miss him ad wish he would just call:(............i truely thought he meant all those things he said on the phone....i asked him so many times if that was what he wanted and he said yes!
Why?:(