i dont even know

[pinksparklez526]

i hate knowing that you control the way i breathe, my mood today.
I'm stuck in a haze i cannot escape, and theres nothing i can say.

i dont even know what i feel anymore
what i want i will never have, and in what i have i will never be satisfied.
it seems easier to shut off the part of myself tht feels any kind of emotion at all
but how can i turn away from the one thing my heart longs for?
i dont even know what i feel anymore

its so hard to see the ones closest to me
floating in what i want most, while i drown in my faded hope
its so far out of my reach
the thing i want, the one i need
sometimes i wonder if theres just something wrong with me

i dont even know what i feel anymore
what i want i will never have, and in what i have i will never be satisfied.
it seems easier to shut off the part of myself that feels any kind of emotion at all
but how can i turn away from the one thing my heart longs for?
i dont even know what i feel anymore