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So I haven't really written in awhile.
School is pretty much over. I have one more exam on Thursday and thats it. I can't believe i'm really DONE. Time really does fly. It seems like just yesterday I had just moved into this apatment, and I was laying here crying because I couldn't wait for the year to be over and done with.
and now it is.
and so much is about to change. its kind of like, im at the "inbetween point" where a lot of things have just ended in my life, one chapter has been closed. And i'm waiting for a new one to begin, waiting for new things to begin. Kinda of a dull period, but I really can't wait for the new things. I dont know what they're going to be. But i can't wait. Im ready for it NOW.
this summer should be interesting. Lots will be going on, but at the same time its going to be a lot like i feel right now.... like its just a dull period waiting for something bigger. im going to try and enjoy it though...and not get too caught up in the things i WANT to happen. Because i tend to do that a lot, dream up these big scenarios in my head of whats going to happen in my life... and then it doesn't work out anything like that.
i mean, this whole California thing. may not even work out. it might not be what im suposed to do.
this boy that i think i like a lot, i could end up this time next month asking myself what in the world i was thinking. [because honestly its really not working out anyway, go figure]
the friends im making that i think are SO AWESOME....could disappoint me by the end of the summer and i might have new ones.
everything is just so TEMPORARY. im ready for something PERMANENT.
i'm ready for a life that i am PASSIONATE about, that I love, that every day is a thrill, that i have something that wakes me up with a smile on my face. something i can be proud of. something that i know God has called me to do, that i am living out.
i'm ready for friends that will truly KNOW me and LOVE me... that I in return do the same for.
i'm ready for a LOVE that is TRUE and right... that is passionate and crazy, but understanding.... i'm ready to find that one person who will chase me to the ends of the Earth to be with me and love me.
i'm ready to be so intimate with my Savior that i have not a worry in the world that i know everything is completely RIGHT.
bring it on.
School is pretty much over. I have one more exam on Thursday and thats it. I can't believe i'm really DONE. Time really does fly. It seems like just yesterday I had just moved into this apatment, and I was laying here crying because I couldn't wait for the year to be over and done with.
and now it is.
and so much is about to change. its kind of like, im at the "inbetween point" where a lot of things have just ended in my life, one chapter has been closed. And i'm waiting for a new one to begin, waiting for new things to begin. Kinda of a dull period, but I really can't wait for the new things. I dont know what they're going to be. But i can't wait. Im ready for it NOW.
this summer should be interesting. Lots will be going on, but at the same time its going to be a lot like i feel right now.... like its just a dull period waiting for something bigger. im going to try and enjoy it though...and not get too caught up in the things i WANT to happen. Because i tend to do that a lot, dream up these big scenarios in my head of whats going to happen in my life... and then it doesn't work out anything like that.
i mean, this whole California thing. may not even work out. it might not be what im suposed to do.
this boy that i think i like a lot, i could end up this time next month asking myself what in the world i was thinking. [because honestly its really not working out anyway, go figure]
the friends im making that i think are SO AWESOME....could disappoint me by the end of the summer and i might have new ones.
everything is just so TEMPORARY. im ready for something PERMANENT.
i'm ready for a life that i am PASSIONATE about, that I love, that every day is a thrill, that i have something that wakes me up with a smile on my face. something i can be proud of. something that i know God has called me to do, that i am living out.
i'm ready for friends that will truly KNOW me and LOVE me... that I in return do the same for.
i'm ready for a LOVE that is TRUE and right... that is passionate and crazy, but understanding.... i'm ready to find that one person who will chase me to the ends of the Earth to be with me and love me.
i'm ready to be so intimate with my Savior that i have not a worry in the world that i know everything is completely RIGHT.
bring it on.