June 27
Rob confessed to me that last year he read my journal. Now over a year later, he is throwing in my face about something I wrote about before I met him. That I had feelings for a man named Shaun Yanick. Shaun FB messaged me, and we fought about it Friday night. I didn't talk to Shaun for long, 10 mins top. But Rob refused to be near me, or talk to me. Then Saturday morning he woke me up by fighting about this. And now Sunday afternoon he started it up again. I am not allowed to talk to Shaun.Even if he lives in San Diego CA and I live in Saginaw MI. Cause yeah totally going to start an affair that way. My boyfriend's jealousy is aweful. He goes straight at yelling at me then thinking of revenge. His way of revenge is saying" I am going to start talking to Faith then" You know. Faith. The ex-wife of his best friend, the person he slept with that was the cause of his last relationship to fall to peices. That Faith. The girl who he has told me he thinks she is crazy and doesn't think he'll ever talk to again because she is some crazed repulican. That one. I am sorry if I had feelings for a guy before I met you but I am only human. I do not know why I have to be crucified for this. He read my journal. He read my inner and deepest thoughts. His excuse why. Cause I left my journal out on my bed, WHO THE HELL DOES HE THINK HE IS ? Who reads someone else's journal then yell at them for what they wrote? HE IS FUCKING CRAZY. omg. I am so sick of watching what I say and do. If I go and hang out with Peter, I can't tell Rob things we talked about or did. Cause then I am talking about Peter too much and that makes him jealous. I just have to go " Yeah hung out with Peter". I have been given my 20 mins, i only used 10 and I still feel pissed off about it. He just picks andpicks at things. What is the point of bringing up fights. Get over it. Jesus. you're 35. It has to be bad if I am starting to yell. Well, I had to fight with him 3 times about the same thing over 3 days, I am kind of at my breaking point. You should get a medal for dating Rob. It is so tough a lot of the times. He questions why I love and stay with him. The secret, I question that too. Then I remember he makes me laugh. But any fucker can make me laugh. Ok I am done. -xoxo