Mini Update.....

[pinkoceantides]

So I know I’m never on here and I feel really bad, I’ve been so busy that I barely remember to breathe! This week has been crazy that I didn’t even know it was the weekend was here and now it’s Monday, oh joy!

Well I went to my best friend’s birthday party at Electric Cowboy on Aug 30th and some guy that I was talking to on a dating site met me at

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[caz2y5]

Hey welcome back!
glad to see your doin good.

[pinkoceantides]

I'm tryin! LOL

Men are confusing and I'm so stressed that I'm getting sick, crazy!

Hope you are well:)

[caz2y5]

You cant let a man (or a woman) make you sick! if yoru not careful you could spend the rest of your life that way! haha. No actually i wish you good luck.

Me? honestly i've been better but hopefully meds will make it better! lol.

[pinkoceantides]

LOL! I know huh, but love how they are eh LOL!

Thank you, just dating is hard I suppose :X

Aww you're sick?

[caz2y5]

Some times i think that being married is harder!
and im not sick so much as depressed. My brain has been runnign on auto pilot for a while now. so i am trying to get it to switch back on.

[pinkoceantides]

It is!

What is wrong? Don't have to share if you don't want to.

[caz2y5]

Sorry i dont mean to be kryptic. but its a long explanation so here:

I suffer from depression. i have done so off and on for the past twenty or so years.
To much of the wrong kind of Stress can sometimes make it come back with a vengence.
My sister tried to kill herself on the 27th of June and i have had custody of her son. so there has been alot of really bad stress complicating stuff and its been building up for a while.
So things have finally come to a head and i had a breakdown. should have seen it coming but oh well hind sight is twenty twenty as hey say. so i have started taking anti depressants. My mum has my nephew now so hopefully things will start to pick up and my brain will recover with only the smallest of damage.

[pinkoceantides]

I'm sorry bout that! I have depression too, used to take meds but can't anymore due to no insurance.

I'm sorry to hear about your sister, I know how it feels, I tried to kill myself few years ago, sadly everyday I have scars that reminds me of the day everytime. :[

Hope things get better, if you need anyone to talk to, I'm here for ya!! :)

[caz2y5]

Thanks. Yeah i totally been there too. And thanks for the offer. Im not really that bothered by my sister. Its just all the other crap that comes with it.
And im trying to keep positive which is all anyone can do really. i banned myself from depressing songs! and its helping. listening to lots of metallica! haha

[pinkoceantides]

No problem! :) I just know when I tried to kill myself, my life changed forever! I'm still trying to do the same thing, think positive its gotta get better eventually. I know I listened to a lot of Good Charlotte at the beginning of my divorce which I think that helped me out a lot!

:)

You seem like a strong person! :D

[caz2y5]

Thank you so much for the compliment! also thanks for letting me get it all of my chest. Talking about it did help. Sorry to hear you got divorced but things do get better and im sure your dating issues will be tolerable too!
same goes to you by the way. if you ever need someone to talk to. or someone to help you hide the bodies! ;P
Im here for ya.

[pinkoceantides]

You're welcome! :)
it helps to vent and talk about things, it makes it a lot easier too! :) plus you're feel better afterwards! :D

Yeah, divorce sucks, I never thought I would be going thru this, but what can I do, the guy ruins my life and he's free and living it, eh. lol

Thank you, it means a lot and well I'm sure I'll need help, it's a hard job ;) LMAO!!

j/k