updatey!
I am still unable to spend less time away from my computer. It's a hard addiction to break, I think.
I am trying really hard to be happy. But it's so hard to convince yourself of certain things, to put away your natural ways, to pretend in other cases to be something you're not, and to try to believe that you really don't care. I can wake up happy and have a great day, but I give my mind two seconds rest and I'm back to gloomy places. I think this is why I keep so busy - it keeps my mind away from the dusty sidelines, and on track towards achieving the many goals I set for myself. I am screaming to myself, I DON'T CARE. But I do, because I sit down, and those thoughts begin to well up.
One month, or so, of summer left. I haven't really done any of my summer Masters reading ... eeps! But I have had more wine in the past week than I ever thought possible for a natural beer lover. I have found myself actually really enjoying red wines, they've got a lot going on. Like dark beers and whiskeys. I only wish alcohol wasn't such a terrible detriment to my oh-so-womanly figure.
I am trying really hard to be happy. But it's so hard to convince yourself of certain things, to put away your natural ways, to pretend in other cases to be something you're not, and to try to believe that you really don't care. I can wake up happy and have a great day, but I give my mind two seconds rest and I'm back to gloomy places. I think this is why I keep so busy - it keeps my mind away from the dusty sidelines, and on track towards achieving the many goals I set for myself. I am screaming to myself, I DON'T CARE. But I do, because I sit down, and those thoughts begin to well up.
One month, or so, of summer left. I haven't really done any of my summer Masters reading ... eeps! But I have had more wine in the past week than I ever thought possible for a natural beer lover. I have found myself actually really enjoying red wines, they've got a lot going on. Like dark beers and whiskeys. I only wish alcohol wasn't such a terrible detriment to my oh-so-womanly figure.