im updating its been 4 fuckin weeks
well do yall really want to know whats been goin on. i dont think yall do cause ive been alil crazy lately. sorry its been so long but so much has happend. so like about 3 weeks ago i was put in a mental hospital and i stayed there for about 3 to 4 days. it didnt do a bit of good. and i wasnt put there cause i wanted to kill myself or some shit like that. i went cause i thought it would help me stop cutting. ive been a cutter for about 6 years and thats about the only thing i havnt tried. well that didnt help at all. i dontknow what the fuck im goin to do. its the only thing that helps. but through the years its just been gettin worse and worse and happens more and more. so they put me on a drug and like its supposed to help and ive been ok for the past couple days but then somethin happed at school and it was too much for me. so i started to cry and i cried and cried and cried. i couldnt stop and so i went to call home and like the assistant principle and she took me to the conciler and then all this shit happpend and they saw the scares on my arm and said i couldnt come back to school till i get an ok from a docter. so like i have an appointment on monday. so ill be missin all that school. man i really feel like shit. it never goes away andit feels even worse now cause every1 knows about it. my mom almost crys all the time so does my oma. i know it really hurts sarah. she came and visited me when i was at that place it really must of been hard for her. i know it was. i could see it in her eyes. well i think im goin to go but ill leave yall with a pic so yall remember what i look like....
do u think im beautiful?