i had such a bad day
well as of right now im not sure if me and sarah go out. we had a realy big fight and she kinda broke up with me. i started to cry and freak out cause i did want that to happen. then she started to say sorry and kiss me so im not sure wha ts up with us. and i am really just freaking out cause i do love her. shes everything i want. but she really just hurts me so bad. i had to drive home crying. which is not good for me cause im a suckin driver in the 1st place. i dont know what to fuckin do. im goin fuckin crazy. oh and my mom and joe really found out about a few things that arent really good but i mean after 5 years i guess it might be good that they really know now. i dont know. i odnt know about so many things right now its so upsettin. i wanna talk to her but i know we dont have anythin to say. im over steph for 2night cuase i just dont think i could deal with my mom or even be in my house. why must things hurt so much.god i dont know what to fuckin do!!!!!!