life love.
I’m well and truly so excited about the start of fine art school next week. I chose my subjects and time table today it goes a little something like this:
Monday: Photography.
Tuesday: Graphic Design & E-media.
Wednesday: Photography, Graphic Design, Art Theory.
It was so wonderful being in such a creative place. I’m already inspired.. the people, gosh, I was so taken back - everyone seems so genuine and lovely, and from what I just saw today ever so creative. It makes me mildly nervous, will I be good enough for Art School? I have been thinking about my subjects and what I sort of want to focus on in each. I think for photography I want to focus on the body, and faces and clothing attire. Perhaps even antique furniture and old books and houses. I have such a fascination with such things… I find them terribly beautiful. I think that is why I seem to appreciate my op-shop finds so much more than my over the counter chain store or what not purchases: they have so much history, and excuse the lame saying but ‘everything from the past was made so much better’… well, I believe that is certainly true. Beautiful craftsmanship. I’ve found my view of the world to have changed so very much the last few months, sometimes I wonder if its just because I am growing up, or whether I’ve strangley fallen in love with life, and the beauty of everything.. literally everything. Perhaps I’m somehow constantly blurred with ecstasy of my own mind? who knows. But gosh, I am so taken with everything. The tiniest things just get me. It’s wonderful! Perhaps I have finally found how to appreciate things.
Yesterday I walked in a sundress, and old worn boots in the rain into the city. It was thrilling. The cold water dripping down my back. I did not care one bit. Hobart is so beautiful. The air is clean and fresh despite it being a capital city. I am so happy here. I do not think I can move from here for awhile, if ever. I walked from Christophers house, and jumped on a bus to cross the river to see my friend I affectionately call Lamb for lunch. I have a scrumpticious salad and juice and we sat and chatted about a variety of things. He is such caring, kind person, you cannot not want to just cuddle him or love him. I think girls take advantage of how nice he is. This saddens me so. I hope he finds someone loyal and as caring as he.
That afternoon I did something I found quite difficult. I went to meet me ex-boyfriend Patrick at the airport as he returned from a stint of working in tropical northern Australia. He took me for dinner last night. It was nice, but a bit awkward, us now not being together, with me moving on with Christopher. I felt guilty in a way to pat for being so happy with someone else. But also guilty to Christopher, for going to dinner with pat (however please note I told Christopher straight away, and said it was perfectly fine.) After I saw pat I walked to Christophers. Fell down on his bed, and we just lay there looking and kissing each other gently. We did not have to say anything. I just knew I needed to see him. I seem to being growing fonder and fonder of him. Everything. How he talks. Watching him play guitar (he plays songs I find on my ipod, he has one earphone I have another and he plays it as it plays… ahhh. Talented boy.) I could ramble on and on about him. Truly. So happy. I want to let myself sing infront of him. He heard me in the car the other night. I get so very nervous and shy singing ‘properly’ around people. He gently said ‘you can sing Millicent.’
After I saw Christopher I went to North Hobart to get Gelato with Harriet and Benjermin. It was yummy. I had butterscotch in a waffle cone. Then we all drove to Sandy bay and had cups of tea with harriets mum. By the end of the evening it was 11.30. and I went home to sleep.
Tonight I am staying in. I want to play around with a few stencils. Maybe do some drawings. Tomorrow I am going to get my Fine Arts Texts, and some clothes that I can wear to ruin to art school. Tomorrow evening I am going to see Des Peres, an electronica group from Melbourne. I cannot wait. I will take photos. I applied for another job today also. Hopefully I shall find out about that on Monday. Goodnight everyone. xx