no two days are the same?

[pinkie_minkie]

so anyway... after that whole wanting to die thing i smoked myself super d duper retarded and then remained sad for a while... last weekend and this weekend (however) have been two of the best in my life. i realized that you can't expect someone else to fix you, you have to do it yourself. lalala. so anyhow last weekend john took me night fishing (which didn't work out all too well so we quit early) and then on saturday in the afternoon, he took me shooting... which was awesome considering. it's like nice to have people in my life that do what they say they are going to do. in any event, this weekend i got to sleep in a tent in miss bines's front yard... then have a bonfire the next night and today i came home. the rest of those two weekends have been spent with my sisters (because they are awesome)

i'm prolly not even making sense right now but it's perfectly okay with me because i'm not with the program.

so mike and his wife broke up for real and she's dicking him around about his daughter. it pisses me off cuz 1 i used to like mike so bad things happening to him are not good... and 2 he's an awesome father. i mean he's not the perfect man but he's a god damned good father and the fact that she's a cunt is apparent... so i want to punch her in the jaw.

umm what else happened.....? hahahaha oh yeah that... but there was looking at stars and fishing and shooting and fire and bitty and basically it's been all around happy... not to mention i have a new smoking buddy at amanda's house.

i also painted today... i haven't painted since fred and i broke up. i think this is one of the best ones yet... not to mention that i actually finished it in one sitting, frame and all... i am awesome

i'm going to go play with johnny potsmoker and smokey macpots

oh... yeah call me if you feel like it... i can't promise i'll answer but i'm here if you need me