good to be home?
I'm home from St. Louis.
By the way... I umm, left for St. Louis on Saturday morning to go to an insurance thing. I guess I forgot to mention that.
I think my body is so exhausted that its just refusing to function properly right now. I've been dropping stuff all day. My mind has also decided to crap out on me because its making me think stupid things. The past four days were awesome, but a total eye opener. I feel like I need to re-evaluate my life plan/goals right now. Not that I'm unhappy with my current one... I think I'm just stuck in a rut. Its actually stupid to say that because I'm getting promoted at work and all that jazz, but it still doesn't feel like I have a big people's job. I want money, I want to close on big deals, I want to have the big account... can I really do that where I am? Ugh... can I really leave though? Of course not...
Maybe I'm just regretting not picking up and moving somewhere random after college. Although I wouldn't be in insurance if I had done that. But if I wasn't in insurance I wouldn't be feeling the way I do right now. I guess you logically have to start small and work up to something big. I couldn't just walk into a big city firm and expect to get hired. I just feel really small-time right now. I know my company is a big deal around here, but these huge national companies really interest me.
I don't know... maybe I'm just tired.
Or maybe I'll just randomly move out of NJ tomorrow and never look back.
(PS - this is all regarding my job-life... no one has to get offended or anything.)
By the way... I umm, left for St. Louis on Saturday morning to go to an insurance thing. I guess I forgot to mention that.
I think my body is so exhausted that its just refusing to function properly right now. I've been dropping stuff all day. My mind has also decided to crap out on me because its making me think stupid things. The past four days were awesome, but a total eye opener. I feel like I need to re-evaluate my life plan/goals right now. Not that I'm unhappy with my current one... I think I'm just stuck in a rut. Its actually stupid to say that because I'm getting promoted at work and all that jazz, but it still doesn't feel like I have a big people's job. I want money, I want to close on big deals, I want to have the big account... can I really do that where I am? Ugh... can I really leave though? Of course not...
Maybe I'm just regretting not picking up and moving somewhere random after college. Although I wouldn't be in insurance if I had done that. But if I wasn't in insurance I wouldn't be feeling the way I do right now. I guess you logically have to start small and work up to something big. I couldn't just walk into a big city firm and expect to get hired. I just feel really small-time right now. I know my company is a big deal around here, but these huge national companies really interest me.
I don't know... maybe I'm just tired.
Or maybe I'll just randomly move out of NJ tomorrow and never look back.
(PS - this is all regarding my job-life... no one has to get offended or anything.)