And by a walk I mean...
So I got home and ran a few errands, meaning I slipped on that tie dyed lucky brand dress, and headed out to pick up birth control. On my way out the door I was stopped by mother dearest. She thrust a plastic bag filled with miscellaneous coins in my direction. I gave her a quizzical look, she raised her eyebrows in response "What? Cvs is right next to stop and shop anyway you can get some extra money." I sighed and forced a smile she was being sweet but it was only a reminder of how poor I actually was. Al called me around 12 and we agreed to meet up for a walk, though I'm sure neither of us really knows what that meant. Honestly to me it just meant I wanted to see him. After failing at getting my birth control from cvs because my provider in long island was closed (holy day my ass...Sundays psh) I got a whole $24.70 from coin star and headed to Al's house. I parked under the tree as usual... got the butterflies as usual, and walked in to find him...clipping his fingernails. I stopped short instantly having a flashback to the last time I'd saw him clipping his fingernails. I was lying on my bed in just a t-shirt and underwear, lying wouldn't be the best way to put it I was lying with my head over the side upside down impatiently waiting for him, since my cuddle buddy had decided that this had been the opportune moment to clip his fingernails. "How long are you going to take..." "Almost done" he'd placed the nail clipper down on the bathroom counter with a click, and I blinked watching him step back into the room and bend to give me an upside down kiss. Hard to believe that was only two weeks ago... what happened to us. Anyway, we took max his old black lab with us and drove to his dad’s house; from they’re walking to Appleton Farms, which was beautiful. I wanted nothing more than to hold his hand as he walked but instead we debated and talked. He always pokes fun at me and says I think too much, why do guys always find that thinking too much is a bad thing? But I guess their right sometimes I wish I could just shut my mind off for a second or a day. Actually what I really wish was I could erase the past five months of my life, and every sweet thing he did for me from my mind, very eternal sunshine of the spotless mind I'd say. Anyway I left when we got back and we discussed plans for tomorrow night. When I got home I finished that vacuuming my mom had been pressing for, then Tim came and picked me up. Tim's an all right guy, who at first I thought was rather cute but there's something about him we just don't have that spark. Anyway misery loves company, and Tim and I have both recently been dumped so we just chilled had dinner at Panera and caught the Hangover which is an absurdly funny movie I must admit. I have a good feeling about Tim I think we're going to be good friends, anyway now I'm conversing with Cricket trying to find out what the hell I'm doing tonight, either hanging out with her or Taylor and to be honest I would really prefer her, the only boy I want right now is Alex and these shadows from my past are more of a frustration that a comfort in my post breakup stage.