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[pinkforlife]

im in this reallly weird mood. Like I'm happy, but I know a lot of people aren't happy, and then I feel bad for being Happy. It's like how can I be so happy when so many other people are hurting so bad, it just doesn'r seem fair

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[dayum_jeanah]

that makes sense, but if you're going along with the whole if you live a good life, then all the people who have AIds lived a bad past life? And btw, it's not just kids in Africa that have no parents that are dying of AIDS, americans, latins, asians, and europens go through that too. And I understand what your'e saying, but serving God isn't a chore for people. it's a choice. I see it this way. Serving God is easy, and if there is no heaven or hell, I will have lived by a good philosophy of loving your neighbor and praising God. Reguardless of if he's real or not, I do't see death as a final thing or not. it's interesting that you wrote this becuase I'm delaing with the same shit. A lot of stuff that i've delath with over the past eyar and a half have made me question God, so now I think I consider myself agnostic. Im sure I wouldn't be so "religious" if I dind't grow up the way I did. But I understand your confusion. And it's confusing I don't belive in reincarnation, but I do belive in a heaven and a hell. I figure the bible is real

[pinkforlife]

Like what I meant with the AIDs thing was like I live a great life, i'm completely aware how spoiled and such I am, and i definately take it for granted, but if I died tomorrow and was born again as a child with aids(or whatever the situation) It would be completely different from my life. I mean, let's face it, I don't even camp, Living in Africa or being homeless on the streets of new york or something, would be a complete culture shock for me. Idk I just view life after death as something compltely different than the life you live on Earth.

And I get what you're saying about the serving God thing, but you know my fmaily, I've never grown up with organized religion, and let's face it, I didn't know Christmas had anythign to do with God until I was like ten. I just wasn't education in the religion aspect of life

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[dayum_jeanah]

understandable. it's just one of those things that everoyne has to deal with. Death doesn't scare me, like when my fmaily dies, I nkow theyre' in a better place, and I go on with life living through them. But I just don't know. I feel like if reincarnation really happened then I would feel like I've lived before. if that makes any sense. And yeah, going to Africa i a big culture shock, like south Africa and Zimbabwe, for me ti's a better culture shock becuase you just don't get jusdged as heavily. I'ts more of a loving place. They pray in school, reguardless of religion, they just seem to be mroe lovng and accepting of poeple's cultures and body's and all of that stuff. But I get you guys. I just feel like creation and christianity is so out of the loop that it makes sense. like god said let there be light and SHAZAM! there was light, it's random, ti's a miracle.

[pinkforlife]

See that's the kind of stuff I have trouble believing. I guess I'm just a very literal thinker, I need to ahve an explaination for everything, I can't just believe something if someone doesn't tell me why.

I know sometimes I seem really stupid or something, but I'm really not as dumb as people think :) haha, I do think about things, and Ive been accused of thinkin too much about things, but I just can't help it, When somethign Intrigues me, I want to know why, and how, and everythign about it, if that makes sense.

[dayum_jeanah]

it makes a ton. I think a lot of poeple think about this philosophy shit. it's just kind of difficult because there's no way to know... unless you've died. And since none of us have died, we don't nkow. I just think the way I grew up and sorry if I sound judgemental, but I don't know. I get what your'e saying, how you ahve to have an explaination. SO do I. Buyt I think we both need different aspects. I think if there was the first tep to evolution, I would belive it. Like I think that things that are wlel thought out have to have all of the pices. And for me creation and christianity have all of the pieces. As out of the box as they may be, they are there.