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im in this reallly weird mood. Like I'm happy, but I know a lot of people aren't happy, and then I feel bad for being Happy. It's like how can I be so happy when so many other people are hurting so bad, it just doesn'r seem fair.
Saturday I was with Grace and Nikki called her like crying and freaking out, her and her brother were driving down this big hill goign like 80 and he lost control of the car and it spun out and fell down the embankment, totaling the car, but amazingly both of them survived with only a couple bruises.
It's just so odd to think one day you're here and then you're just.....not It just amazes me.
Life has this weird thing for people. It's so weird to think about how people view God. Many believe in the one God, but pleanty of others believe in multiple Gods. I just don't understand how one Person could know everything about everyone, and change everyones lives and make them one way or another. I just don't understand, It blows my mind.
I mean Friday I was having the time of my life dancing and just being me and doing what I do best, but I didn't know what layed (lied?) ahead of me the next morning. I could have been killed on the way home or something else completely life changing. I just don't get it at all.
What happens when you die? I don't know, no one knows, but that's the thrill, Not knowing what happens when you die can be scary or completely awesome. It like you're here one day, then all the sudden you're not, and wherever you are after depends on what you did in your life? I don't know I just don't see it that way. I think everyone has their own personal heaven and when its their time, they go back to earth, but as someone different. Sure, that's just me, but that's how I feel, Like i have a great life. I have all the money I need, all the medical treatment I could possibly need, I have great friends, a pretty good family, and sometimes, I'll admit, I'm selfish, I still want more. But What if i died tomorrow and came back as a kid in Africa suffering from Aids, without parents, or family. Or what if I came back as an animal. I don't know you guys are probably reading this and you're like "damn, Charlotte's insane." But it's basically what I think about.
I've talked about death a lot with Alishas mom, She knows what I'm talking about when i talk about the reincarnation. Alisha knows too. It just makes sense to me. And when I think about people I've lost, I'd like to think of them as People or animals I know now. I don't like to think of them as dead. Death just seems so final. It likes bam that's it. But what if there is no heaven or hell? Then all those people who worked so hard all their lives to be God's follower did it for nothing? Or all those people, like me for instance, who didn't worship God everyday and don't exactly do everything right and such, are we bound to be in hell, if there is one?
Hmm, I don't know. leave comments.
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Saturday I was with Grace and Nikki called her like crying and freaking out, her and her brother were driving down this big hill goign like 80 and he lost control of the car and it spun out and fell down the embankment, totaling the car, but amazingly both of them survived with only a couple bruises.
It's just so odd to think one day you're here and then you're just.....not It just amazes me.
Life has this weird thing for people. It's so weird to think about how people view God. Many believe in the one God, but pleanty of others believe in multiple Gods. I just don't understand how one Person could know everything about everyone, and change everyones lives and make them one way or another. I just don't understand, It blows my mind.
I mean Friday I was having the time of my life dancing and just being me and doing what I do best, but I didn't know what layed (lied?) ahead of me the next morning. I could have been killed on the way home or something else completely life changing. I just don't get it at all.
What happens when you die? I don't know, no one knows, but that's the thrill, Not knowing what happens when you die can be scary or completely awesome. It like you're here one day, then all the sudden you're not, and wherever you are after depends on what you did in your life? I don't know I just don't see it that way. I think everyone has their own personal heaven and when its their time, they go back to earth, but as someone different. Sure, that's just me, but that's how I feel, Like i have a great life. I have all the money I need, all the medical treatment I could possibly need, I have great friends, a pretty good family, and sometimes, I'll admit, I'm selfish, I still want more. But What if i died tomorrow and came back as a kid in Africa suffering from Aids, without parents, or family. Or what if I came back as an animal. I don't know you guys are probably reading this and you're like "damn, Charlotte's insane." But it's basically what I think about.
I've talked about death a lot with Alishas mom, She knows what I'm talking about when i talk about the reincarnation. Alisha knows too. It just makes sense to me. And when I think about people I've lost, I'd like to think of them as People or animals I know now. I don't like to think of them as dead. Death just seems so final. It likes bam that's it. But what if there is no heaven or hell? Then all those people who worked so hard all their lives to be God's follower did it for nothing? Or all those people, like me for instance, who didn't worship God everyday and don't exactly do everything right and such, are we bound to be in hell, if there is one?
Hmm, I don't know. leave comments.
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