Nov 20, 2004 22:20
OMG I am going crazy! My computer is turning off all of the time now, so I am leaving it off as much as possible because I'm afraid that I'm hurting it more when it turns off, like if it's a virus or something. I know that I am absolutely addicted to my computer, I didn't need to lose that to find that out. Like I have absolutely no interest in turning on the TV; I am not a TV person at all. I have the radio on; I like music. Without my stereo system it would just be me in my lonely room. Jackie should be home from work in a while (I am on her computer). But I am afraid something is wrong with her computer too, so I am scared to go on it too, because I don't want it to break on me. That would be horrible. I'm really on it to work on my paper that I have to finish up by tomorrow. Right now, I am halfway done and it's really bad b/c I did the first half of the project (10 books) at the beginning of the semester and reviewed the good books then. Now I have ones that are really hard to write about, like Polar Bear, Polar Bear What do You Hear? and it's made up of questions exactly like that one only with different animals. And I have to write about Social Studies. It's just annoying, not an incredible strain on the brain.
We won the football game today against Villanova. We will find out Monday if we have a home or away game on Thanksgiving weekend. I want my Thanksgiving weekend, but we'll see.
I could be going out tonight but I really don't have any interest in that this weekend. Karen and Denise are helping out SCPAB with the movie, but I was with them for the evening for pizza and chatting. I feel like I don't see them enough. And it looks like they are not coming over here b/c it's already 10:30 and they should have been out by now.
I miss having someone to call; I'm sure my mom is gonna say something because I'm not using all of my minutes. If I talk to anyone here though, I just use the local phone b/c that is easier.
Well it seems like I have more to look forward to now that a lot of my work is done. I'm surprisingly not too worried about this project; if I could just do one book it would be good so that it felt like I did just a little tonight.
I went out with some of the El Ed honors girls last night for dinner which was really fun. Although, it was kind of scary because we were already getting a head start on our "teacher lives" where we hang out at restaurants with our colleagues. We're hoping on changing that up, but I'm going to wait for someone to plan that one because there isn't much I can do about it. It would be too much explanation for some of you who would have no idea what's going on; just ask.
So if I think about it, I've been a argumentative, sad, and lonely girl this weekend, but somehow right now I'm not gonna let that bother me. Home on vacation so soon, even though part of me says wow I don't want to go home and face things. But, it must be done. I'm mature enough to handle it, and I want things to be good even though they will never be the same again. Change is one of those things that really scare me. Time to face my fears.
Please call me sometime if you don't see me online. I am going to be sooo bored and lost without my computer.