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well it's been quite a while since i've updated. life has been well... nothing like it has before. it's just so busy, so much to think about with so little time. certain things in my life i feel like i need to come to a decision about, but i know i just need to take my time. i get way too stressed out if i feel pressured, so i need to calm down. everything seems so complicated right now with friends, relationships and school. i know i should just think about my future and what i want out of life, but i hate feeling like i'm leaving others behind or just not doing the right thing. i'm not good when it comes to making decisions involving my feelings because they are all over the place. the only thing i guess i'm pretty sure about right now is school, that's the most important thing to just get through that. i dont know what to do with the week and a half i have left though. i mean sure, i've been having fun with my friends i suppose, but there's something missing. i dunno, maybe i just needed a break, time to go out and do what i want without anyone to question it, but now i'm questioning it for some reason. i mean i like going out, but i miss him at the same time. i want to be with just him sometimes, but i know thats hard until i figure out what i want from us. i just feel like it's all me sometimes, i'm the one who has to make the decision about me and him, and also with me and my friends. no one is going to make a decision for me, although i know there are some who wish they could. it's just way too much right now.
anyways, on a lighter note, i'm off to school in about a week and a half. i'm staying overnight by myself in salem for my orientation on tuesday. i'm sure i'll be lonely, but there's a Denny's right next door to keep me company. it's happening so quickly. i just sent my papers in for a room assignment, which i think is going to be more like an apartment rather than a dorm. that should be interesting. i'm so scared and nervous, and now that it's so close i'm really thinking that i dont wanna leave. but i have to, i have to grow up and go on to school like everyone else.
blah to life. it's so AHHHH sometimes.
anyways, on a lighter note, i'm off to school in about a week and a half. i'm staying overnight by myself in salem for my orientation on tuesday. i'm sure i'll be lonely, but there's a Denny's right next door to keep me company. it's happening so quickly. i just sent my papers in for a room assignment, which i think is going to be more like an apartment rather than a dorm. that should be interesting. i'm so scared and nervous, and now that it's so close i'm really thinking that i dont wanna leave. but i have to, i have to grow up and go on to school like everyone else.
blah to life. it's so AHHHH sometimes.