tell me what you know about dreaming..
i miss you today.
i dont care, i can't help it sometimes. i wish i didnt, but i do..
kyle added me to facebook a few days ago, which is bizarre becuase he was the one who deleted me when we broke up and i asked him why, and he said he couldnt be friends and said it would be easier this way. i have talked to him once in like 3 years.. and he just all the sudden adds me back to facebook.
i'd see his thing on "people you should add" list on facebook, and thought about maybe adding him, but i always remembered thats not my place and that would be selfish.
but he added me. interesting.. i messaged him asking how he was, and we messaged back and forth a few times..he's 27 now, holy cow. im 20.. he seems well and i consider him a friend, and i hope he considers me the same. although - could there possibly be alterior motives behind this ever so - non chalant - facebook adding???.. i thought about what if he wanted to.. give it another shot?? or even just become friends again. i've been thinking about it, and he is a great guy but i dont think i could give it another shot... if we went out again and nothing changed and he had hopes, i couldnt do that agaain. i just couldnt. i'd like us to be friends though, i would like him to be my friend. it is so hard to find good people, and he is good people - i'd like to keep him.. i dont know if that would sit well with him.. ugh.
this is who i am. i analyze everything.. pay no mind though, these are merely just thoughts i'm entertaining, im not worrying.. just disecting.
it's a gift and a burden... i use it at alot of the wrong times, but it's not something i can control.. my thoughts can consume me at times, bringing me to an entirely different world of feelings..
i'm sick with a cold, it sucks balls. its weird though because its only bad at night and morning .. lol wtf, during the day im usually okay.
my sister is desperately angry with me for not seeing nana with her today because i dont feel the greatest.. for being sick today.. i actually had alot of energy. which is weird because yesterday i wasnt AS sick, but i was like dead the whole day, i just couldnt get enough rest.
frigg man, who knows.
ALSO. Cinnamon in coffee is absolutely delightful, its my new ffavorite way to drink coffee. cinnamon is just amazing as it is, i love anything with cinnamon in it (UNLESS RAISINS ARE HANGING OUT TOO)
todays been severly boring for me, im just likeeeee ghjgssbjfdcbnzmldk it sucks when your sick and you dont feel like going anywhere but at the same time you have energy and your like AHghsdbhjkdngkel.
i love hazlenut butter right now. with a little bit of honey. SO effing good on toast or whatever... mmm.. and toaster strudels.. soo goood... hahaha so to sum it up my favorite foods right now are
cinnamon coffee
toaster strudels
hazelnut butter & honey on toast
over and out,
clement