this is my favorite song as of right now
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but anyhow
hey.. umm friday went clothes shopping...saturday went to fireworks...last night went to see guess who at the movies..iv talked to amanda a few times it seems all cool but who knows..we were cool then all of a sudden we werent so who knows..yesterday i was getting hungry and i waited so todd could clean his room and play a game on the computer, well i ate at 1pm and around 6:30pm i couldnt bare it any more i had to eat well i was gonna go to little ceasars and get me n lillian something and then go to the park then hes like wait till after this 2nd game which he just began that was at 6:54pm cuz i looked at the game when he told me that then at 7:27pm hes like im done then we looked outside and it was raining and my stomach was hurting so bad i tryed so hard not to cry infront of anyone..well he stopped at vitos to look at his scedule and it tok him like 4 minutes y couldnt he just call cuz u know he dont like that place lolol..then he went to my window to tell me his hours im like maybe u could just drop me off at then go do whatever cuz im hungry hes like god r u gonna die and honestly my stomach hurt so bad cuz i was so hungry cuz i waited so long..then we got to my house and he was still acting like a dick about me eating..then i went into the bathroom to go to the bathroom and i just starting balling my eyes out like the tears just kept coming..well i thought lillian was at the door cuz she knocked and i was gonna open it then just shut it so i could wipe my face off but todd came in with her and he saw that was crying and i tryed hard not to let him see so he grabbed my face and asked y are u crying i said cuz i felt like it we threw that like 15 minutes of that so i walked in the bathroom to wipe my face off cuz i was still crying and he shut the door locked it and sat infront of the door so i couldnt leave ( ooooo the memories alwys getting locked up in the bathroom lol) then another 10 minutes asking me over n over y r u crying i said if i find out ill tell you over n over n over, hes like were gonna to the doctors and tel him ur crying and dont know y..and i snikered im like ur gonna go to the doctor and tell him my almost 7 month pregnant girlfriend starts crying and she dont know y lolololol...hes like yes and im like u do that lol..then he took me off the tolit and held me and kept asking me is it me am i being to mean and i knew if i said yes shed fell bad cuz im up in the bathroom crying and mostly cuz what hes saying..and hes like well y r u crying and again i said i dont know hes like well if i starting crying in the bathroom and i told u i didnt know youd say i was thinking about the other girl and thats y i was crying i starting laughing cu7z honestly id think something like that...he knows me to well lol....he called saturday just to say i love you and im like what r u doing hes like nothing delivering pizzas im like what r u up to hes like nothing i said what have u been doing hes like working and he knew where i was going from there..cuz i find it weird when he calls just yo say i love you i feel like he did something wrong and he feels gulity..hes like man im gonna quit my job and stay home with you everyday i snikered and hes like man if i died today youd be saying hes up there banging some angels or girls are having sex with my dead body lol i started laughing hes like well its true..and i cant ever remember anything i feel like im alwys in a daze nothing seems normal anymore..im either crying (when i cry it seems to keep the anger away without going off on anybody so i cry it makes me feel better) or in a cloud..i got a new bra it feel so comfy just thought i sould say it outloud lol..i talk to amanda for her birthday she 17 damn i meant her when she was 4 or 5 or 6 lol and today shes 17..well im gonna go clean my house its a mess not completely but enough