hey
well im talking on the phone i was tired but cant fall asleep...well last night i disliked..todd was showing me this gay as porno and it was gay pertending to be lord of the rings this lady fought, then she took her clothes off as this guy went down on her im like yeah i know what goes on in a porno retard...so he keeps watching it for a few minutes im thinking im ok as long as he dont touch me or nothing..well he turns it then he says theres nothing on then turns on white chicks the movie we saw 686866789 times..and i was wearing a skirt so he wrapped my legs around his head and he asked for a head massage im like, im tired let me lay here so i starting rubbing his head but as soon as my legs went over his shoulders BOOM CUZ WHO POPpED Up, im like geeze now ill have to give him some im thinking oo geeze didnt take him long right after that boob scene and the guy going down on the girl hes like thats not it im like do u think im stupid and he keeps saying please please and hes ripping my clothes off like literially ripping them off so he takes me in the laundry room not far so if someone came in they could see everything..pissed me right off..he knows how i felt and he did it anyways..we argued alot about it this afternoon hes like im sry im like do u even know what ur sry for hes like i guess for making u have sex im like u guess jesus..hes like u never want to well duhh..he knows what turns me off and talking about x girlsfriends and being obsessed about talking about girls at work..but then he went to work then came over at 8:45pm he tells me he works later all the time.. do i believe him???? nooooooooo..he alwys tells me his times, they alwys seem to change often but i can never remember..well he came over n he put on the pistons game n i was falling asleep cuz i didnt want to watch it he said he was falling asleep to and i believe he was, he gets up about 11:15pm and says i think im gonna go home n go to bed...LIAR work kept calling and he said it was ryan then he called back up there and im not sure, he said some girl made a mistake with a ticket..i believe he leaves early cuz when the bar closes he goes up there with whoever or he goes up there n drinks..and my sexual drive for him as at a 0% cuz he proves nothing he says i prove everyday that i love you more cuz he says i love you first im like soo actions speak louder then words hun..u do stuff the piss me off, everything i tell u that bugs me u dont ever stop doing that..i dont trust anything, he keeps saying im not damien im not damien, im like im not stupid all u guys are like damien u all just show it in a different way...but yeah one minute i think were good but who the hell knows why he keeps me around part of me believe cuz if he leaves me his parents are not gonna be to happy.....he knows i dont trust him that i think he does stuff at work and maybe on delieveries but he does nothing to resure me that he dont except i love you well yeah i got one word for that BULLSHIT..he says he was looking threw the paper yesterday for apartments..hes so funny lol hes not ready yet for that..a apartment n feeding n clothes n supporting 4 people i dont think so, i think he tries to make me think all this good stuff so he lets me down to see how far will i fall..
but anyhow hes hurting my stomach so i gotta stop talking about him
i sat outside from like 12:30pm to 3:30pm got a little tan i had a brachlet on and u can see where it was..it looks stupid lol...well thats about it..i hope christine gets her head out of her ass..i think talking to her is worthless cuz she never listens or tries and every says look at ur mistake look how long it took u to leave well damn i sure hope it dont take that long..and did i tell you that alicia called up at todds work saying her name was stephanie bartlett that cracked me up..im glad no one knows where im at i love it this way no drama unless i put myself back into it..i talked to donna for couple minutes on a different screen name i think she found it weird but im sry its gotta be like this until all drama stops but as soon as i talk to someone guess what and his name pops up i dont care..i guess damien called donna like a month ago asking for money prolly for his coke problem damn that sucks..my mom looks on some site everyday just to see if hes face showed up yet lolol geeze thats what makes me believe hes not there n its all lies..but who cares im no where to be found havnt heard his voice almost in 2 months im so relieved of that his voice was starting to sicken me cuz it was all lies and it was about his daughter the most beautiful prescious thing in the world and he dont give 2 fucks..i told todd he dont have to be there i said im not gonna ask for child support cuz if u dont want to be in this childs life ur problem not mine..i want more kids but the way everything is going i think imgonna stop at 2 i want 3 or 4 but i dont know if this is my prince cuz if so damn god is doing it completely wrong..todd says hes doing his best he dont go out with other girls, he dont do this and that will girls, he dont hit me, he dont get drunk and say mean things..weve been only going out almost 8 months not much to show well i guess alot a baby..everytime hyes around he talks about my weight..he weighs like 160lbs i weigh 107lbs hes like i think ur 112lbs now hes believe hes so perfect well buddy im 6 months pregnant and i think thats pretty good and honestly i think i keep y weigh down cuz i exercise about 3 times a week i watch what i eat cuz my stomach is not huge, in the pictures it looks alot bigger to me but when i get up in the morning it looks like im just fat, at night i look like a pencil with a big ball under my shirt..but my legs n everything is getting fat..my nipples are like really really huge like holy shit..and i want to be able by febuary 14 be back to normal the way i was kinda..im hoping to only get up to 125 or 130lbs that meand i would gain 30-35 lbs i dont want to gain even that..but i want the baby to be healthy..but i think my tummy is showing that its perfect..my back kills..but ICYHOT is my bestest friend lol..i know this may sounde wrong and i feel like crying when i say it but i wish i never got pregnant..one minute im happy the next im miserable..y cant my head be straight for one minute so i know what i really really want..
but anyhow hes hurting my stomach so i gotta stop talking about him
i sat outside from like 12:30pm to 3:30pm got a little tan i had a brachlet on and u can see where it was..it looks stupid lol...well thats about it..i hope christine gets her head out of her ass..i think talking to her is worthless cuz she never listens or tries and every says look at ur mistake look how long it took u to leave well damn i sure hope it dont take that long..and did i tell you that alicia called up at todds work saying her name was stephanie bartlett that cracked me up..im glad no one knows where im at i love it this way no drama unless i put myself back into it..i talked to donna for couple minutes on a different screen name i think she found it weird but im sry its gotta be like this until all drama stops but as soon as i talk to someone guess what and his name pops up i dont care..i guess damien called donna like a month ago asking for money prolly for his coke problem damn that sucks..my mom looks on some site everyday just to see if hes face showed up yet lolol geeze thats what makes me believe hes not there n its all lies..but who cares im no where to be found havnt heard his voice almost in 2 months im so relieved of that his voice was starting to sicken me cuz it was all lies and it was about his daughter the most beautiful prescious thing in the world and he dont give 2 fucks..i told todd he dont have to be there i said im not gonna ask for child support cuz if u dont want to be in this childs life ur problem not mine..i want more kids but the way everything is going i think imgonna stop at 2 i want 3 or 4 but i dont know if this is my prince cuz if so damn god is doing it completely wrong..todd says hes doing his best he dont go out with other girls, he dont do this and that will girls, he dont hit me, he dont get drunk and say mean things..weve been only going out almost 8 months not much to show well i guess alot a baby..everytime hyes around he talks about my weight..he weighs like 160lbs i weigh 107lbs hes like i think ur 112lbs now hes believe hes so perfect well buddy im 6 months pregnant and i think thats pretty good and honestly i think i keep y weigh down cuz i exercise about 3 times a week i watch what i eat cuz my stomach is not huge, in the pictures it looks alot bigger to me but when i get up in the morning it looks like im just fat, at night i look like a pencil with a big ball under my shirt..but my legs n everything is getting fat..my nipples are like really really huge like holy shit..and i want to be able by febuary 14 be back to normal the way i was kinda..im hoping to only get up to 125 or 130lbs that meand i would gain 30-35 lbs i dont want to gain even that..but i want the baby to be healthy..but i think my tummy is showing that its perfect..my back kills..but ICYHOT is my bestest friend lol..i know this may sounde wrong and i feel like crying when i say it but i wish i never got pregnant..one minute im happy the next im miserable..y cant my head be straight for one minute so i know what i really really want..