ok i guess
Well the last 2 days iv been moving and todds been doing most of it..iv said alot of negative stuff about todd the last couple entrys i feel bad but its how i felt..i got a hold of his phone and i showed christine the pictures that are in his phone she said it dont really look like him it does a little but not as much as i see we couldnt see a ear ring or not so we couldnt tell but then he came over here saturday night and spent every day and night here till midnight last night..4 days straight..well i just got out of the shower..the apartment is almost moved..all thanks to todd..saturday will be the last day of moving i will be sooo happy..the sex has gotton better since my head has been ok so iv been wanting it more n more with barly any fight i bet he liked that hehe..But I Love Him With Everything and hopefully my head keeps on straight for now on but i doubt it very much i get this thing where i think of all this bad stuff..but its noit that i dont trust todd but i think as soon as he knows hes got all trust he'll turn on me..and he knows how i feel now and he alwys says thats how i know i love you more cuz i trust u well im sorry but i do love him and prolly more and thats prolly y im going crazy cuz im so scared but then i think if he does something bad then i guess he does its not the end of the world just the end of our world..it will hurt ALOT and ill cry like a little baby ALOT but i know time heals it might take a long time for everything to heal but it will eventually..but yes i love him and i alwys will but when things go threw my head man they hit hard and ill just let him come over wheneve he wants like i told him im just not gonna wait around for him cuzone minute he'll want to come over anhd then he dont so yeah im just not gonna wait anymore..but i told him that already..im nlove with him and thats very scary....i was watching him last night telling lillian he loves her and talking to her b4 bed and my emotional side was getting to me but i almost cryed and its like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CRYING FOR ME..very very very very tired..i think im going to the womens expo tomorrow with christine yippii are this will be our 5th year going together yippii..I GET FREE STUFF HAHA