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well this is going to be long....and its basically me just giving advice of what i learned in hs really looking back on things and closing the hs chapter of lj...i hope to still write in here in college bc in all honesty it was nice having just a little journal and i looked back on all my old entries and it made me remember all those little details that kind of slipped my mind.....so here goes....
i realized especially just in the beginning of the summer with things that happpened that people get so caught up in their own lives they never loook at the big picture....i did it...flagler county and the people that went to fpc were like the world, the drama, the breakups and makeups were my world, when people hated me i took it to heart as if the world hated me, and i finally realized flagler county and the people in it are a small number compared to everyone else in the world, soon everyone moves on and the stupid little drama or not even drama but stuff you got yourself so worked up on is nothing bc of the big picture, and for those of you who think you realize taht you dont until you have to leave it all behind and know that after summer it wont matter what those people think of you bc you will be meeting the rest of the world and the world that is real...
now dont get me wrong there are some amazing people here in my flagler county world..hahaha...and i think having good real relationships with people is one of the hardest but my rewarding thing ever..honestly look at and see how many people are your true friends not just oh yea we have hung out but true friends...its so much easier to have fake friends then actually start real relationships and i am sooo thankful for the amazing friendships i have made here....morgan and ana will always be there in my life i can promise you that..morgan and i will be pregnant together...way down the road and toher people are really important to and i know that i will always remember and hope to keep the relationships i had with them...but really look at the relationships you have and see how many are true and not ones that r just there....
i leave for college in a month...things are going to change...and high school was probally the best four years of my life...so many things happened i learned soooo many lessons and i created memories i will never let go of...it scares me to just jump and go to a new place....i am deciding my future...so many jobs and careers look so appealing but its whichh one to pick... i second guess myself everyday maybe i should have tried fashion school..maybe i should ahve gone out of state...is this what i really want to do...will i succeed...and i guess i jsut have to have confidence in what i am doing and go for it and if its not working then experiment but until i try i will never know.....
so i am tired of typing and i plan to actually start updating again in this thing so maybe more but the two lessons above almost i wish i would have learned mid way through hs that way i wouldnt have spent so much time on stupid stuff but now i know and i move on with that knowledge for future experiences....
some pieces of advice...
love is never in the same place that you left it
dont get caught up in drama and those who hate it are the ones who start it
reach out to ur true friends and make real relationships not fake ones
remember those little fights, the boy you think you love well its all just high school wants and dreams and after its regrets
and some other stuff
i will continue this later
ciao
i realized especially just in the beginning of the summer with things that happpened that people get so caught up in their own lives they never loook at the big picture....i did it...flagler county and the people that went to fpc were like the world, the drama, the breakups and makeups were my world, when people hated me i took it to heart as if the world hated me, and i finally realized flagler county and the people in it are a small number compared to everyone else in the world, soon everyone moves on and the stupid little drama or not even drama but stuff you got yourself so worked up on is nothing bc of the big picture, and for those of you who think you realize taht you dont until you have to leave it all behind and know that after summer it wont matter what those people think of you bc you will be meeting the rest of the world and the world that is real...
now dont get me wrong there are some amazing people here in my flagler county world..hahaha...and i think having good real relationships with people is one of the hardest but my rewarding thing ever..honestly look at and see how many people are your true friends not just oh yea we have hung out but true friends...its so much easier to have fake friends then actually start real relationships and i am sooo thankful for the amazing friendships i have made here....morgan and ana will always be there in my life i can promise you that..morgan and i will be pregnant together...way down the road and toher people are really important to and i know that i will always remember and hope to keep the relationships i had with them...but really look at the relationships you have and see how many are true and not ones that r just there....
i leave for college in a month...things are going to change...and high school was probally the best four years of my life...so many things happened i learned soooo many lessons and i created memories i will never let go of...it scares me to just jump and go to a new place....i am deciding my future...so many jobs and careers look so appealing but its whichh one to pick... i second guess myself everyday maybe i should have tried fashion school..maybe i should ahve gone out of state...is this what i really want to do...will i succeed...and i guess i jsut have to have confidence in what i am doing and go for it and if its not working then experiment but until i try i will never know.....
so i am tired of typing and i plan to actually start updating again in this thing so maybe more but the two lessons above almost i wish i would have learned mid way through hs that way i wouldnt have spent so much time on stupid stuff but now i know and i move on with that knowledge for future experiences....
some pieces of advice...
love is never in the same place that you left it
dont get caught up in drama and those who hate it are the ones who start it
reach out to ur true friends and make real relationships not fake ones
remember those little fights, the boy you think you love well its all just high school wants and dreams and after its regrets
and some other stuff
i will continue this later
ciao