we live in a beautiful world. yeah we do, yeah we do
i neglect this thing. it's been over a month since i last updated and so much has happened. but i say that every time. i swear to gosh i do.
to sum it all up, i feel like i am the luckiest person alive. every day i'm just realizing more and more how little i have to complain about. sure there's school and college and a future to worry about, but there's also friends and family and love and peace and health and comfort and excitement and inspiration and optimism. all the time, lately, it seems.
since i last updated, my sister got married. that weekend was the best of my life. at least in recent memory. here's a rundown of how it went:
thursday: bachelorette party at night
friday: rehearsal in the morning and rehearsal barbecue at jake's family's house at night
saturday: hair and things at noon, pictures at 3:30, wedding at 6:30, reception from 7:30ish until midnight. sleepover with andy
sunday: wake up with andy, church, have cousins and laurie and jake over in the afternoon, hang out with andy the rest of the day
the whole weekend was just a big mess of spending time with my family and i love them all to death. seriously. my siblings are amazing to hang out with, and my cousins are wicked fun to see, and everything was just so... magical. as corny as that sounds. since i was in the wedding party i got to stand up there on the dancefloor as they had their first dance, and i had a perfect view of laurie's face every time they twirled around. she was just so happy. too happy to put into words. we always knew that her and jake would get married, but at that moment, when they knew they were actually about to start their life together, their smiles were priceless. laurie has always been such a great sister to me and i was just so excited for her that she found someone to make her as happy as she deserves to be.
and it was so cute to see how happy the rest of my family was too. we're really not the most mushy-i-love-you family out there... i mean we always just kind of joke around and stuff, but just looking around at my brothers, it was awesome to see how genuinely happy they were for her too. there was this one moment during the rehearsal dinner where greg just kind of leaned over to me and said "so thats it... shes really getting married huh?" and i thought about it for a minute and just said "....yeah. she is." and it hit me like crazy. and we all danced at the wedding. my brothers, my dad, everybody. we just didnt care how dumb we may have looked and we enjoyed the night completely. ah. it was perfect. oh, and by the way, i was the first one to cry. i lost it. at the rehearsal dinner laurie was introducing the bridal party and when she was talking about me she said the nicest things ever. she said that even though we have a 7-year difference in age and even though ive always been the kid sister to her, lately she's been seeing me as more and more of a friend and ive really been growing up. and it killed me. haha. she gave me a hug after, and i was gone. oh man.
ah. it was all just so emotional, and it made me so glad to be alive. and it also helped that my entire family adores andy. the poor kid had to meet every single one of my relatives in two days, but each one of them just loves him. my dad even, who never says anything like that to me, he told me what a 'keeper' he thinks andy is. and laurie told me she really really likes him. and at the reception i saw greg looking at us when we were slow-dancing and he had a smile that seemed to say he was so happy for me that andy makes me so happy. oh, and the other day my mom told him she loved him. haha. and the night before the wedding we stayed up watching a movie with my dad and my brothers and then the day after we hung out with my cousins and family again and everything, and he was making conversation with my brothers and it was just cute to see them all chatting. i dont know. i mean i guess it just gives me a warm fuzzy feeling.
he gives me a warm fuzzy feeling. he was so nice about the whole thing. i mean, i was scared to even ask him to come because i know he hates meeting big groups of new people, but when i asked him he didn't even think about it because he knew it was important to me. and then he would talk about how he absolutely didnt want to dance..and then at the reception he was the one who actually pulled me out onto the floor and didn't care who was watching. and plus he had to deal with some horrible things that he found out about an hour before the wedding. but the whole time he kept a smile on his face because he knew it was important to me. i am so fucking lucky to have him. when he slept over that night, and when i woke up with him next to me, i swear, life cant get any better than that.
sigh, where do i go from there? school is alright. nothing too much to say there except that early release is the best invention ever. its really not that big a deal if you think about it... you only get out 45 minutes earlier than usual.. but the feeling i get when it turns 2:10 and im sitting on a dock staring out at a lake in the sun instead of waiting by the door to leave class is... wonderful.
the open mic tonight was a lot of fun. its awesome to see so many people just kicking back and playing what they love to play. being there just makes me feel so free. there was a point in the night when me and jon miller were hanging out the windows of his car screaming our lungs out when i still felt like it was summer. thats our solution, i think. do something to make yourself feel as detached from limitations as possible and summer will be back. i swear, try it. i want to play something- or i guess sing probably, haha- at one of these sometime, so if you want to play something with me, let me know. i am down.
if you skipped around, which i dont blame you for doing, the moral of this entry is i love you.
what else really matters, but love?
to sum it all up, i feel like i am the luckiest person alive. every day i'm just realizing more and more how little i have to complain about. sure there's school and college and a future to worry about, but there's also friends and family and love and peace and health and comfort and excitement and inspiration and optimism. all the time, lately, it seems.
since i last updated, my sister got married. that weekend was the best of my life. at least in recent memory. here's a rundown of how it went:
thursday: bachelorette party at night
friday: rehearsal in the morning and rehearsal barbecue at jake's family's house at night
saturday: hair and things at noon, pictures at 3:30, wedding at 6:30, reception from 7:30ish until midnight. sleepover with andy
sunday: wake up with andy, church, have cousins and laurie and jake over in the afternoon, hang out with andy the rest of the day
the whole weekend was just a big mess of spending time with my family and i love them all to death. seriously. my siblings are amazing to hang out with, and my cousins are wicked fun to see, and everything was just so... magical. as corny as that sounds. since i was in the wedding party i got to stand up there on the dancefloor as they had their first dance, and i had a perfect view of laurie's face every time they twirled around. she was just so happy. too happy to put into words. we always knew that her and jake would get married, but at that moment, when they knew they were actually about to start their life together, their smiles were priceless. laurie has always been such a great sister to me and i was just so excited for her that she found someone to make her as happy as she deserves to be.
and it was so cute to see how happy the rest of my family was too. we're really not the most mushy-i-love-you family out there... i mean we always just kind of joke around and stuff, but just looking around at my brothers, it was awesome to see how genuinely happy they were for her too. there was this one moment during the rehearsal dinner where greg just kind of leaned over to me and said "so thats it... shes really getting married huh?" and i thought about it for a minute and just said "....yeah. she is." and it hit me like crazy. and we all danced at the wedding. my brothers, my dad, everybody. we just didnt care how dumb we may have looked and we enjoyed the night completely. ah. it was perfect. oh, and by the way, i was the first one to cry. i lost it. at the rehearsal dinner laurie was introducing the bridal party and when she was talking about me she said the nicest things ever. she said that even though we have a 7-year difference in age and even though ive always been the kid sister to her, lately she's been seeing me as more and more of a friend and ive really been growing up. and it killed me. haha. she gave me a hug after, and i was gone. oh man.
ah. it was all just so emotional, and it made me so glad to be alive. and it also helped that my entire family adores andy. the poor kid had to meet every single one of my relatives in two days, but each one of them just loves him. my dad even, who never says anything like that to me, he told me what a 'keeper' he thinks andy is. and laurie told me she really really likes him. and at the reception i saw greg looking at us when we were slow-dancing and he had a smile that seemed to say he was so happy for me that andy makes me so happy. oh, and the other day my mom told him she loved him. haha. and the night before the wedding we stayed up watching a movie with my dad and my brothers and then the day after we hung out with my cousins and family again and everything, and he was making conversation with my brothers and it was just cute to see them all chatting. i dont know. i mean i guess it just gives me a warm fuzzy feeling.
he gives me a warm fuzzy feeling. he was so nice about the whole thing. i mean, i was scared to even ask him to come because i know he hates meeting big groups of new people, but when i asked him he didn't even think about it because he knew it was important to me. and then he would talk about how he absolutely didnt want to dance..and then at the reception he was the one who actually pulled me out onto the floor and didn't care who was watching. and plus he had to deal with some horrible things that he found out about an hour before the wedding. but the whole time he kept a smile on his face because he knew it was important to me. i am so fucking lucky to have him. when he slept over that night, and when i woke up with him next to me, i swear, life cant get any better than that.
sigh, where do i go from there? school is alright. nothing too much to say there except that early release is the best invention ever. its really not that big a deal if you think about it... you only get out 45 minutes earlier than usual.. but the feeling i get when it turns 2:10 and im sitting on a dock staring out at a lake in the sun instead of waiting by the door to leave class is... wonderful.
the open mic tonight was a lot of fun. its awesome to see so many people just kicking back and playing what they love to play. being there just makes me feel so free. there was a point in the night when me and jon miller were hanging out the windows of his car screaming our lungs out when i still felt like it was summer. thats our solution, i think. do something to make yourself feel as detached from limitations as possible and summer will be back. i swear, try it. i want to play something- or i guess sing probably, haha- at one of these sometime, so if you want to play something with me, let me know. i am down.
if you skipped around, which i dont blame you for doing, the moral of this entry is i love you.
what else really matters, but love?