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So.....its with much thought, that I have to say goodbye to the part of my life that believes no one is intentionally trying to hurt me....because they are. Im not going to name any names, but its just that I know in my heart that I shouldnt be saying and doing the things that I am to this person, but for some reason I keep doing it. Im being led on. Im not stupid, I totally see it. Yet for some reason I keep following, thinking that it might end up differently if I act of dress differently. Stupid right? For some reason I keep getting caught in the headlights of life, and then I just freeze. Right now everything is crazy. I dont know what Im going to do for cash cuz I have a payment due next week that I dont have the cash for....I hate this car, and I hate being so wrapped up with everything in my life. Right now I just want to go and lay outside and look at the sky for hours, and think about everything so much that I have nothing else to think about, so my mind will be blank and I will be happy. Doesnt look like thats going to happen any time soon, which totally sucks, but for now I will go write...and do something to take my mind off of how crappy my life is seeming to go right now...
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