Todays the day
I get to see Brandon today so I suppose I should be really happy right? Actually Im pretty scared and I dont want to tell Meagan Im scared cuz I know shes scared too but there are so many questions run ning through my mind like what if hes changed too much? what if he thinks Ive changed too much? What if hes not the guy I remember? What if he hates the new me? What if hes into more drugs than what I think?
Im scared Ive lost y big brother to a world full of drugs and Im not ready for that at all. He was always my big brother and I couldnt imagine him any other way
and as for bill... we have good talks... but who knows any more.Part of me still wants to love him but part of me thinks he still loves someone else and I dont know who but Im really hoping its not Jenny because I can not STAND her and I told him that too.. I asked him if he was exciting bout today and he said hell mother f**king yea cuz its gonna be like it use to.... I really hope hes right about that cuz I really want my life back to normal I really do.
Im scared Ive lost y big brother to a world full of drugs and Im not ready for that at all. He was always my big brother and I couldnt imagine him any other way
and as for bill... we have good talks... but who knows any more.Part of me still wants to love him but part of me thinks he still loves someone else and I dont know who but Im really hoping its not Jenny because I can not STAND her and I told him that too.. I asked him if he was exciting bout today and he said hell mother f**king yea cuz its gonna be like it use to.... I really hope hes right about that cuz I really want my life back to normal I really do.