Thinking Of You
Title: Thinking of You
Pairing: Adam/Sauli, Adam/Tommy
Rating: R
Warnings: angst, m/m loving
Disclaimer: I do not own the boys. This story is purely fictional and for entertainment purposes only.
Summary: Adam thinks of Tommy.
Author’s Notes: This story was inspired by Katy Perry’s Thinking of You. I hope you enjoy it. Thanks for reading. Feedback is always welcome.
Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection.
His lips weren’t soft. His hands weren’t calloused from years of playing the guitar. His body wasn’t skinny. He didn’t love tacos. He didn’t understand the awesomeness Velvet Goldmine. He didn’t love David Bowie. His hair wasn’t long one side. All in all, Sauli wasn’t Tommy and he never would be.
You said move on.
Where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know.
Adam stared at the ceiling as Sauli slept beside him. He couldn’t stop thinking about Tommy. During the tour, they had been something. Adam wasn’t sure what they had been, but he knew that it was over now. Tommy had told him to move on. Adam tried with Sauli, but he would always be second best.
What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night
In his mind, it was Tommy sleeping beside him. He knew exactly what he would do if it was Tommy sharing his bed. He’d move closer and wrap him in his arms. He’d kiss all along Tommy’s neck and shoulders until he woke up. Tommy would roll over and they would kiss. Their hands would roam each other bodies. Tommy would stroke him until he was hard. Adam would use his fingers to open Tommy up. When Tommy was ready, Adam would gently slide into him. They would continue to kiss as Adam thrust into him. Tommy would touch himself. He’d come between their joined bodies. His orgasm would send Adam over the edge. He’d cum deep inside Tommy. They would fall asleep with Adam still inside him.
He kissed my lips.
I taste your mouth, oh.
He pulled me in.
I was disgusted with myself.
Beside Adam, Sauli stirred. He opened his eyes and rolled over to look at Adam. He smiled as he moved closer. Adam gave him a weak smile. When Sauli tangled himself with Adam, he felt his erection. Thinking about Tommy had made Adam unbearably hard. Sauli moaned, kissed Adam’s chest, and wrapped his hand around Adam’s length.
Sauli mumbled something into Adam’s chest. It wasn’t English. He tended to do that when he was tired or turned on. Adam didn’t say anything. He closed his eyes. He pictured Tommy’s hands on his body. Sauli moved and brought his lips down on Adam’s lips. As they kissed, Adam could taste mint and chocolate. It was what Tommy had always tasted of. Sauli rolled onto his back and pulled Adam with him. Adam was disgusted with himself as he went through the motions. He imagined Tommy the whole time.
Oh, won’t you walk through
And bust in the door and take me away
Oh, no more mistakes
When they were done and Sauli was sleeping soundly beside him again, Adam stayed awake. He continued to stare at the ceiling. He wished that Tommy would bust through the door. He imagined that Tommy would tell him that he had made a mistake…that he loved him…that he wanted him back. He wanted Tommy to come and take him away.
Sadly, Adam didn’t think that day would ever come. He knew that he was going to have to settle for second best. If it wasn’t Sauli, it would have to be someone else. It would never be Tommy.
You’re the best.
And yes, I do regret how I could let myself let you go.