Ever Have One of Those?
So last night, i had "one of those" times...
there are all different ones... you know
I had one of those times I wanted to
*scream
*cry
*die
*kill someone..
etc
Ah... last evening was the i want to scream AND kill someone. Mark has finally got a job, where he can make money and of course he doesnt want it. And of course he wants to leave because his parents and me are all pressuring him to do it because we KNOW whats best for him.He always does this, he gets all upset and pouts and makes it seem like we are horrible people.
PS... i do care about my bf, but he has had at least 3 jobs of no longer than 3 weeks since i have known him, every one of them he quits because " his heart isnt in it," though I seem to see a shocking trend lately. It seems that all the jobs he enjoys are the ones where he is in control of everyone else. If he isnt in a job where he has a managers position, he doesnt want to do it. So, now hes working at cendant, where mind you he has better shifts then most everyone else and for some reason is getting payed more, but no, that isnt good enough. He wants to work at Dairy Queen because OBVIOUSLY that is much better... god i dont know how his parents and I cant see that *rolls eyes* Anyway the point is i hate this stuff. He never finishes a job, he never sticks with it long enough to know. Its really frusturating. How is anyone I know going to like him, ( especially my family) if he keeps jumping around from job to job, not going to school just being a bum. I dont know if I want that in my life. I told him if he goes to DQ he had better stay there.
Its so weird because since we got back from the break everything has been a ton better, but I just see him going into the same cycle again. It reminds me of someone I know who I used to date that my family was not at all impressed with. Is it to much to ask, to you know, possibly date a guy who is in some way financially stable or somewhat has their life together or is thinking in some way about a future? Is it to much to ask that someone doesnt cop out everytime they start doing something that is challenging? I mean, its a job right? It isnt the end of your life if you wind up working for a call centre. I feel like he wants to quit as soon as anything shows any challenge to it.
I mean, what if this whole relationship somehow does continue. I'm going to be with someone who works at DQ? or.. someone who jumps from job to job. Not that i care that the boy works at dq but get a freakin education GAWD. Perhaps its that im too highly motivated. My parents never let me be good enough, I was always second in their mind and i needed to be first. Maybe thats the reason I am like I am, but then for some reason i seem to feel bad for these guys who in no way have their lives together. When I first met mark i was thinking THANK JESUS because he owned a business, and by the way he talked about it a really successful one. Not that his business isnt sucessful, but I mean, hes 23 years old i thought maybe by now, he might you know have it together?
... anyway that was a lot of ranting about that. I'm just really upset by this whole thing. Last night I just told him that I only try to offer suggestions and im not trying to be hard on him, but i caved, like I always seem to do. I swear though... upon my grave that if he goes to DQ and quits after 1 or 2 weeks..... i am going to be SOOOOO MAD that im not sure what I will do.
ANYWAY.... hows everyone doin? i havent updated in a while, and it seems everytime i do, im updating rants about my boyfriend....lol.. so... if you guys have any questions ask?
there are all different ones... you know
I had one of those times I wanted to
*scream
*cry
*die
*kill someone..
etc
Ah... last evening was the i want to scream AND kill someone. Mark has finally got a job, where he can make money and of course he doesnt want it. And of course he wants to leave because his parents and me are all pressuring him to do it because we KNOW whats best for him.He always does this, he gets all upset and pouts and makes it seem like we are horrible people.
PS... i do care about my bf, but he has had at least 3 jobs of no longer than 3 weeks since i have known him, every one of them he quits because " his heart isnt in it," though I seem to see a shocking trend lately. It seems that all the jobs he enjoys are the ones where he is in control of everyone else. If he isnt in a job where he has a managers position, he doesnt want to do it. So, now hes working at cendant, where mind you he has better shifts then most everyone else and for some reason is getting payed more, but no, that isnt good enough. He wants to work at Dairy Queen because OBVIOUSLY that is much better... god i dont know how his parents and I cant see that *rolls eyes* Anyway the point is i hate this stuff. He never finishes a job, he never sticks with it long enough to know. Its really frusturating. How is anyone I know going to like him, ( especially my family) if he keeps jumping around from job to job, not going to school just being a bum. I dont know if I want that in my life. I told him if he goes to DQ he had better stay there.
Its so weird because since we got back from the break everything has been a ton better, but I just see him going into the same cycle again. It reminds me of someone I know who I used to date that my family was not at all impressed with. Is it to much to ask, to you know, possibly date a guy who is in some way financially stable or somewhat has their life together or is thinking in some way about a future? Is it to much to ask that someone doesnt cop out everytime they start doing something that is challenging? I mean, its a job right? It isnt the end of your life if you wind up working for a call centre. I feel like he wants to quit as soon as anything shows any challenge to it.
I mean, what if this whole relationship somehow does continue. I'm going to be with someone who works at DQ? or.. someone who jumps from job to job. Not that i care that the boy works at dq but get a freakin education GAWD. Perhaps its that im too highly motivated. My parents never let me be good enough, I was always second in their mind and i needed to be first. Maybe thats the reason I am like I am, but then for some reason i seem to feel bad for these guys who in no way have their lives together. When I first met mark i was thinking THANK JESUS because he owned a business, and by the way he talked about it a really successful one. Not that his business isnt sucessful, but I mean, hes 23 years old i thought maybe by now, he might you know have it together?
... anyway that was a lot of ranting about that. I'm just really upset by this whole thing. Last night I just told him that I only try to offer suggestions and im not trying to be hard on him, but i caved, like I always seem to do. I swear though... upon my grave that if he goes to DQ and quits after 1 or 2 weeks..... i am going to be SOOOOO MAD that im not sure what I will do.
ANYWAY.... hows everyone doin? i havent updated in a while, and it seems everytime i do, im updating rants about my boyfriend....lol.. so... if you guys have any questions ask?