The little boy-blair popped her head curiously from her hole and looked, blinkingly, out into the...
....very wide world. She clicked her badgerish teeth and did a wee little happy dance. This ritual proformed she retreated back again and began to type a wee little live journal entry.
A lot of thoughts and worries came tumbling into my "pretty little head" a few days ago. I had been so void of worries for so long that I was a bit surprised. It was good though...it sent me back to Jesus with ever increasing dependancy. I also got my liscense. I have found that praying out loud in the car is a singularly unique and wonderful way to communicate. It's like having a genuine conversation with someone sitting right beside you! -- Cause you don't look at someone face to face while you're driving so for all I know God could be sitting in the passenger seat nodding and listening to me spill out anything and everything my heart desires. You're never quite as alone as you are when you are driving alone.
My thoughts and worries came to me in the shape of a boy -- now this boy didn't mean to do anything. It was a friendly act that propelled me into self-examination. I was panicing, though, because when I tried to examine myself I could not find how I felt or what I thought. I was very lost within my own personal labrinth. (Sounds melodramatic!) hehe. Kit helped me to loosen up and not worry. He pointed me in the right direction and helped me to find peace and confidence. I'm very appreciative. I'm also glad that the momentary uncertainty made me rush whole heartedly to Jesus for answers. Sometimes I regret times of perfect peace and harmony because, in my humanity, it is easy to forget where my peace and harmony have come from. (Dog pulling on his chain analogy)
I'm reading the writings of Freud right now. It's VERY enjoyable and so much fun to think on and argue with as the case may be. I also wrote an essay for English.... I'm kind of uncertain about it. It's got a rather "risky" FORMAT but the content is very good and thought provoking. I've made a few people read it to give me some feed back and everyone has walked away looking thoughtful and convicted. That was my goal. Kudos me. I'm just very uncertain about whether my Professor will like it. Ehhh.... but I like it a great deal and I'm almost willing to take the risk.
I've decided not to apply to Sewanee I think. Furman and Davidson are the only ones I feel lead to apply to. If I don't get accepted there I think I'll take that as God's leading and stay at North Georgia for one more year. I have no doubt that I can get accepted though. LOL!! Noo....I'm not cocky or anything! lol ;)
Hmm....you know that boy I mentioned at the beginning of the entry? He's really amazing. I'd like to spend time with him in groups and get to know him better.
Stephanie....Miss you!! Can I come spend the night some weekend? I'll help you with props or whatever needs doing. We can also look at those choreography things you mentioned. <3 <3 <3 Love you!
Blair Schermerhorn
A lot of thoughts and worries came tumbling into my "pretty little head" a few days ago. I had been so void of worries for so long that I was a bit surprised. It was good though...it sent me back to Jesus with ever increasing dependancy. I also got my liscense. I have found that praying out loud in the car is a singularly unique and wonderful way to communicate. It's like having a genuine conversation with someone sitting right beside you! -- Cause you don't look at someone face to face while you're driving so for all I know God could be sitting in the passenger seat nodding and listening to me spill out anything and everything my heart desires. You're never quite as alone as you are when you are driving alone.
My thoughts and worries came to me in the shape of a boy -- now this boy didn't mean to do anything. It was a friendly act that propelled me into self-examination. I was panicing, though, because when I tried to examine myself I could not find how I felt or what I thought. I was very lost within my own personal labrinth. (Sounds melodramatic!) hehe. Kit helped me to loosen up and not worry. He pointed me in the right direction and helped me to find peace and confidence. I'm very appreciative. I'm also glad that the momentary uncertainty made me rush whole heartedly to Jesus for answers. Sometimes I regret times of perfect peace and harmony because, in my humanity, it is easy to forget where my peace and harmony have come from. (Dog pulling on his chain analogy)
I'm reading the writings of Freud right now. It's VERY enjoyable and so much fun to think on and argue with as the case may be. I also wrote an essay for English.... I'm kind of uncertain about it. It's got a rather "risky" FORMAT but the content is very good and thought provoking. I've made a few people read it to give me some feed back and everyone has walked away looking thoughtful and convicted. That was my goal. Kudos me. I'm just very uncertain about whether my Professor will like it. Ehhh.... but I like it a great deal and I'm almost willing to take the risk.
I've decided not to apply to Sewanee I think. Furman and Davidson are the only ones I feel lead to apply to. If I don't get accepted there I think I'll take that as God's leading and stay at North Georgia for one more year. I have no doubt that I can get accepted though. LOL!! Noo....I'm not cocky or anything! lol ;)
Hmm....you know that boy I mentioned at the beginning of the entry? He's really amazing. I'd like to spend time with him in groups and get to know him better.
Stephanie....Miss you!! Can I come spend the night some weekend? I'll help you with props or whatever needs doing. We can also look at those choreography things you mentioned. <3 <3 <3 Love you!
Blair Schermerhorn