I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK!!!!!

[pimptastic06]

God i just dont understand!! i feel so used! I feel that i was just a puppet for Alysha to get over kelly or something! i just feel if i wasnt being used then why would it be so easy for her to just let me go! omg why didnt i see it! why am i so stupid! omg i just hate her right now and now she got what she wanted! i dont want to talk to her! i

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[pimptastic06]

please Ian leave me alone ok! i was just angry with her after just what she did to me ok...and how she went from loving me to not giving a damn about me...so dont tell me want i need to do...and dont tell me what i am and how i am always doing the wrong thing! you dont know what i am going through right now a frankly i dont give a damn if you have had experience with this! i know that you are older than me and you have been through a lot more than me. but i know what i feel...and i know when i cant take it anymore...so why dont you look at the whole picture before you talk to me about what i should do or how i should do it you bias asshole!

Have a nice day!

[bitches_knowme]

that wasnt ian.

and i just want you to know i do miss you and i do feel really bad about what you are going through but i cant force myself to be with you any longer. it just isnt good for either of us. im sorry it ended this way but you and i both know we couldnt be just friends. that would be too hard. and would hurt you more in the end.

i love you from one person to the next but you were not in love with me. the reason you feel this way is because i was your first. but you will find someone who makes you happier than i could ever make you and you will make her the happiest person alive.

you have all my best wishes. <3

[pimptastic06]

i love you i really do...and i care for you more than anything! you know what i have been thinking about...and what i have been dreaming about? i have been thinking of our past with each other. do you remember the time when it was raining outside and i gave you a piggy back ride through the puddles of water so your feet didnt get wet! do you remember the time when you would call me up and want me to sing to you...and id sing our song to you...and you would say "aw baby" and we would tell each other how much we love each other. do you remember the times when we were in my room and we were listening to music and other things(dot dot dot). <3 i remember all of the time when you would want to always make me feel like a king, or the second we would get into my house you would come and kiss me...it was like we hadnt seen each other for a year. i love you sweetie and i am sorry for me. i am sorry for not understanding and for being the inconsiderate asshole that i was. i hate me for that. i hate me for being the one who made everything that

[bitches_knowme]

*sigh* i always thought you had respect for me until now. it would make more sense to me if you didnt go telling our personal things on lj for others to know. that was something special for us... and should have been only for us. i mean telling friends... thats one thing but putting it online for all to see?!? thats going too far.

......i miss you.....
(i shouldnt say that and i know it)

[pimptastic06]

You might consider me a bias asshole, and i will admit to that. I am the most bias person i know. You jump to conclusions, thinking that i am Ian. Which for the record am most definatly not. Why the fuck would Ian be on LJ, and for that matter if he was, he wouldn't be reading your shit. I was just trying to help you out. Make you feel a bit better. I guess your too high above that since you obviously make that clear in your comment by ending every sentance in "ok!". You don't respect me, but you know who else you did that with? Alysha. For a woman you love and respect you sure were talking down to her alot