Things, stuff, and whatnot.
I'd have to say that I have more clarity in my view of my life as it currently is than I ever have before. It's been almost a month and a half now that I've been taking the happy pill, and I feel like a completely different person; one that I haven't been for years. I feel that I have finally gotten my sanity, my joy, my happiness, and pure sense of optimis back in my everyday life again. It's a great feeling to know that no matter what happens, no matter who I might run into, things will not only be okay, but they'll be great. They'll be awesome. I am excited every day that I wake up to see what's gonna happen today. I think that this new "attitude adjustment" has helped tons with my relationships and communication with girls. I have tons upon tons more confidence now, and I truly don't care what anyone thinks or feels towards me. I feel invincible; nothing and nobody can stop me from getting what I truly want from life.
On another note, I have been dating a substantial amount of girls recently; far more than I have been accustomed to previously. There is one particular girl who just absolutely blows my mind each time I see or talk to her. It's a very strange thing for me too, because she's not the ideal picture that I had painted in my mind. Perhaps the palette has been tainted for too long by Daniela. I just dunno. Stephanie is a cute, 5'1", Native American girl who I met from (yes, I know..) the internet. I never thought I'd find myself attracted to someone like I am to her, especially because I've never really been seriously interested in someone outside of my own race. It's a pleasant feeling, because there is so much to learn about her and her family, and she is intoxicating to think about, let alone be around. The sound of her voice alone sets my heart a-flutter, and I shortly find myself nodding off daydreaming like a balloon let loose on a warm summer day. Korny, I know. It's weird, I miss feeling like this, and I'm afraid of it all at the same time. *deep sigh; big, pathetic grin*
On another note, I have been dating a substantial amount of girls recently; far more than I have been accustomed to previously. There is one particular girl who just absolutely blows my mind each time I see or talk to her. It's a very strange thing for me too, because she's not the ideal picture that I had painted in my mind. Perhaps the palette has been tainted for too long by Daniela. I just dunno. Stephanie is a cute, 5'1", Native American girl who I met from (yes, I know..) the internet. I never thought I'd find myself attracted to someone like I am to her, especially because I've never really been seriously interested in someone outside of my own race. It's a pleasant feeling, because there is so much to learn about her and her family, and she is intoxicating to think about, let alone be around. The sound of her voice alone sets my heart a-flutter, and I shortly find myself nodding off daydreaming like a balloon let loose on a warm summer day. Korny, I know. It's weird, I miss feeling like this, and I'm afraid of it all at the same time. *deep sigh; big, pathetic grin*