Old Patterns
I've been kind of self destructive lately. Drinking to much and wallowing in a pit of despair. I had a huge epiphany about my relationship and how I don't feel safe being sexual since the miscarriage. We had a talk about it, but I know I need to find a psychologist to work through some things that are still present. My stomach has been upset the past couple days to and I am struggling hard with depression.
In positive news I'm in communication with a gallery that might want to show my work. I've just fostered a relationship with a yoga studio to start working out of it and my hours are better at the winery. I'm starting to lose some interest in that job though and feel like I'm working for the man to much. I just got in with a poker game as well doing massage and it's super fancy. I like it a lot and it pays the most out of any of my jobs. The car is in the shop again and it's stressing me out. I'm still upset at Dima a little bit for totalling my beautiful Lexus. We've only had this one 3 months and loads of issues already. I have a warranty but had to make an insurance claim to take care of water damage caused by clogged line. My tummy hurts.
In positive news I'm in communication with a gallery that might want to show my work. I've just fostered a relationship with a yoga studio to start working out of it and my hours are better at the winery. I'm starting to lose some interest in that job though and feel like I'm working for the man to much. I just got in with a poker game as well doing massage and it's super fancy. I like it a lot and it pays the most out of any of my jobs. The car is in the shop again and it's stressing me out. I'm still upset at Dima a little bit for totalling my beautiful Lexus. We've only had this one 3 months and loads of issues already. I have a warranty but had to make an insurance claim to take care of water damage caused by clogged line. My tummy hurts.