Theory: the best cure for worry.

[pillarofruin]

I spent some time today reading over some texts that I haven't looked at in a while. Sometimes when I'm feeling unsettled, the best cure is to read some theory... Alchemy has a way of comforting one's fears. It feels like no matter what problems arise, someone has always said something on the topic that makes me feel better

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[thewishfire]

Sensei, I'm sorry you're troubled.... You always seem to be so, lately. I guess it must be hard for you at the end of the year, when you have so much to do and so many students complaining. Please be better soon.

Alchemy always seems to make me feel better, too. I didn't notice it as much before, but... even if I'm just re-reading notes or something, getting into the mindset really... it's like everything just flows more easily, feels more natural. No matter what the circumstance is, it just seems like the right thing to do.

What you've said... it's really comforting to me, too. If you don't mind, and it's not too much trouble for you, I might like to get some of those book recommendations as well. I do feel fine, but... just to be sure.

[pillarofruin]

I'm unsurprised that you're having a stronger response to alchemy lately. I'm not sure if the particular books I'm thinking of will help so much in your case; I would probably recommend something a little different. I'll stop by your workshop and leave something for you to read.

[thewishfire]

Thank you, sensei!

And, my case? Do you think there's something different about what's happening to me? It's not Sulpher, is it?

[pillarofruin]

I don't think Sulpher is going to die, no. I'm sorry I wasn't more helpful during his illness, but I think he is healthy now.

[thewishfire]

Oh, no, you were really helpful! If it weren't for you, he wouldn't have even lived that long, maybe... I mean, who knows why he's better now, but maybe he wouldn't have been, if you hadn't helped him live longer.... I can't thank you enough.

[pillarofruin]

I am glad to see him in good condition...

[thewishfire]

Me too... you don't know just how glad. He's my life.

But... well, sorry to be taking up so much of your time, sensei, but I was thinking. I was talking with Jess recently about what's happening to her, and how I'm not worried about it any more. But Sulpher... I still don't think I can come to terms with the fact that Sulpher might die. After what happened to him, I just get so scared. I know it's selfish, that it's just that I don't want to be alone... but it feels like it's in the way of me truly appreciating what's important. It's not really good to think like that, right?

[pillarofruin]

It is always hard to part with someone you love, knowing you can't see them the way you always have; and parting with a pactmate is especially hard. It is selfish, but I think everyone would forgive a selfish feeling like that.

You should not, however, fear being alone, because you cannot and never will be alone.

[thewishfire]

You're right.... Thank you. I did need reminding of that.

Thinking about it, my heart does feel a little calmer, already. Never to be alone.... Isn't that such a wonderful thought?