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i miss being in love and having someone to share everything with. i miss holding hands and cuddling. i miss being able to trust someone. i miss caring about someone so much that i'd probably do anything they asked.
i am comfortable being single but i get lonely a lot more often than i'd like to admit. i've been on a couple dates lately and i guess they've gone well. i just miss real intimacy. being able to do or say whatever around someone and know that they'll love me for who i am.
i miss having someone to surprise. someone to buy things for. someone to get excited about. someone to watch tv shows and movies with and cook with and sleep with. even just someone to talk to.
this year has been about growing up for me. i'm almost TOO careful now. i don't want to get to know anyone. i don't want to go out. i don't want to go to parties or clubs. i don't want to feel vulnerable or let my walls down.
it's been 7 months and i haven't really found anyone at all. i was attracted to brian for a month and that was about it. there hasn't really been anyone else. granted, i haven't been "looking".
i just wonder if my standards are too high now. if i want too much. or if i'm too scared or distrustful to let myself get to know anyone.
tldr: i miss being close to someone wah wah everyone sucks
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in other news, everything is fine except my car is having troubles. =|
i am comfortable being single but i get lonely a lot more often than i'd like to admit. i've been on a couple dates lately and i guess they've gone well. i just miss real intimacy. being able to do or say whatever around someone and know that they'll love me for who i am.
i miss having someone to surprise. someone to buy things for. someone to get excited about. someone to watch tv shows and movies with and cook with and sleep with. even just someone to talk to.
this year has been about growing up for me. i'm almost TOO careful now. i don't want to get to know anyone. i don't want to go out. i don't want to go to parties or clubs. i don't want to feel vulnerable or let my walls down.
it's been 7 months and i haven't really found anyone at all. i was attracted to brian for a month and that was about it. there hasn't really been anyone else. granted, i haven't been "looking".
i just wonder if my standards are too high now. if i want too much. or if i'm too scared or distrustful to let myself get to know anyone.
tldr: i miss being close to someone wah wah everyone sucks
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in other news, everything is fine except my car is having troubles. =|