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[pikabean]

I miss those Saturdays where I used to stay home alone with my sewing machine. Put on a movie, whip out the pretty fabric, not answer the phone. Sure, I love college, but it's all so very social, all of it. I mean, you are either being social, or you are working. Working all the time. And I mean, I love it. I have made so many great friends here, people I can really be myself around, in my dorm, in the theater department, and in KD- I feel so welcome there, which was something I never expected. Sure, I had these sorts of friends in high school, but they were fewer and far between, must I must say, the ones that really were true, I miss them terribly. But I think one of these people I miss spending time with is myself. It's strange how one can sometimes feel lonely, but at the same time, so want to be more alone. Maybe that's not what it is, maybe I just miss the way things were. Friday nights cooking with Mike, Laura, and Chloe, ringing Jessie's doorbell late at night. Show lottos with the Alex's. Late night musical rehearsals and chats with Mary... just every one... I miss those times, no matter how much I complained about high school while I was there. I like how things are now, but I really really miss how things were. It's odd, I never used to get homesick... I'd be away at summer camp for 10 weeks... but this is different, I guess maybe that's what this is, homesickness... but it's strange, because I'm pretty certain that if I were home for too long, I would start getting homesick again... for here. It's funny how things like that work.

Well, almost time to swing dance and then bury myself in Anthropology before being social again tonight, which will be really fun, and I'm excited, but part of me really would like to stay in and sew. Maybe next weekend I'll tell myself, but I know if I stayed in, I would have to do work... because that's just the way it goes.