Disappointed
It's going to be three months since his passing. It feels like it was just yesterday when it happend. I am still trying to come to the realization that I will never see him, hear his voice, or have him comfort me. It hurts. To have your best friend just ripped out of your life without any warning. My whole life revolved around Luciano as bad as it sounds it did. He was my everything. I wanted to be with him forever. To me he was my friend, my lover, a father figure, someone who wanted to succeed in life.
It hurts to talk to his mother as much as she wants me to keep in contact with her and spend time with her, I just can't right now. I just brings me to tears. Everytime I talk to her she tells me that she feels like shes talking to luciano.
I feel cheated. We were already talking about getting married, I had even told my grandpa back in March when he was freaking out, that he had to get better because I wanted him and my father to walk me down the damn aisle. I feel so cheated and so pissed. We would of been living in Orance county by now and by next year we wanted to have a baby.
Tbis just proves how life can fucking suck at times
It hurts to talk to his mother as much as she wants me to keep in contact with her and spend time with her, I just can't right now. I just brings me to tears. Everytime I talk to her she tells me that she feels like shes talking to luciano.
I feel cheated. We were already talking about getting married, I had even told my grandpa back in March when he was freaking out, that he had to get better because I wanted him and my father to walk me down the damn aisle. I feel so cheated and so pissed. We would of been living in Orance county by now and by next year we wanted to have a baby.
Tbis just proves how life can fucking suck at times