Goals, subjected to change.
I've never been a confident person where it came to my writing, but I love it. I left school at 15 so I feel as though I don't know anything, and need to redo it, just feeling too old now. The thing is, I never much paid attention in school even when I was there, and now I regret it, but you can't change the past. Damnit. I'm thirty now, and I'm feeling it too, I just would love to know enough to actually put a book together but because I feel like I'm stupid or something, I'm terrified to start something in case it's a piece of crap. I really don't know what to do! I look at home courses, but god they cost an arm and a leg, I have considered getting a student loan, but I'm really unsure about whether that's a good idea, you know?
Living in New Zealand is tough too, because they're currently trying to get me into a job that I'm not going to be suited for, with my Lupus, I'm sick constantly, you know? My immune system is just crap, this is not me making excuses. I would love to work. I even had a volunteer job, but had to quit because I got so sick and ended up in hospital for a few weeks. Trust me, once I recover from my surgery, I'm determinedly going to try it again, but for now, it leaves me with time to think about what I want to do. Writing really is my passion and if I could have it as a job, I totally would.
~ Humbug.
Living in New Zealand is tough too, because they're currently trying to get me into a job that I'm not going to be suited for, with my Lupus, I'm sick constantly, you know? My immune system is just crap, this is not me making excuses. I would love to work. I even had a volunteer job, but had to quit because I got so sick and ended up in hospital for a few weeks. Trust me, once I recover from my surgery, I'm determinedly going to try it again, but for now, it leaves me with time to think about what I want to do. Writing really is my passion and if I could have it as a job, I totally would.
~ Humbug.