Bite me...
The world can suck it.
I'm so tired of, like, everything. I don't know how I'm going to pull off anything this semester. I don't know how I'm supposed to juggle supporting myself, going to school and doing the musical. IF I get into the damned thing, the schedule looks like it's going to be horrible (rehearsals Monday thru Friday, dance rehearsals on Saturdays) and how the fuck am I going to work if I can only work one day a week? How am I going to afford rent and insurance and all that crappy jazz, eh? And why can't I be around my family for five minutes without my mom starting to nag me about my car or my lack of communication or all the other shit that's wrong with me. I know she loves me but GOD, I have a lot of stuff to do...
My life is slowly turning into a living hell. I don't know what I'm doing or how to get through it. I'm lonely and can't seem to really attract anyone at all. I'm falling apart strand by strand, thread by thread, and can't pull myself together. I'm losing it. I can't sleep at night. I go out and try to have fun and then wind up feeling like crap afterwards because all this stuff just slams back down on me. It's like life just took off full throttle and left me standing somewhere back in last year. I'm really, really, really tired of it.
And yeah, I'm just really tired.
Bullshit, that's what this year is. Total bullshit.
I'm stuck at work while I should be at school. I'm probably gonna wind up dropping out for the semester or something like that. I don't know. I just don't wanna deal with it anymore.
Blech.
I'm so tired of, like, everything. I don't know how I'm going to pull off anything this semester. I don't know how I'm supposed to juggle supporting myself, going to school and doing the musical. IF I get into the damned thing, the schedule looks like it's going to be horrible (rehearsals Monday thru Friday, dance rehearsals on Saturdays) and how the fuck am I going to work if I can only work one day a week? How am I going to afford rent and insurance and all that crappy jazz, eh? And why can't I be around my family for five minutes without my mom starting to nag me about my car or my lack of communication or all the other shit that's wrong with me. I know she loves me but GOD, I have a lot of stuff to do...
My life is slowly turning into a living hell. I don't know what I'm doing or how to get through it. I'm lonely and can't seem to really attract anyone at all. I'm falling apart strand by strand, thread by thread, and can't pull myself together. I'm losing it. I can't sleep at night. I go out and try to have fun and then wind up feeling like crap afterwards because all this stuff just slams back down on me. It's like life just took off full throttle and left me standing somewhere back in last year. I'm really, really, really tired of it.
And yeah, I'm just really tired.
Bullshit, that's what this year is. Total bullshit.
I'm stuck at work while I should be at school. I'm probably gonna wind up dropping out for the semester or something like that. I don't know. I just don't wanna deal with it anymore.
Blech.