more discussion about my body (dont read it if it annoys you) :-P
whoa- i totally went for a run today. if you can call i that- was only at 15 minutes at a snail pace. but still.
i was out for a nice brisk walk for exercise when i started getting frustrated and feeling like i wasn't getting any. was also feeling slightly nasty after inhaling an entire pint of chocolate cookie crunch flavored tofutti. (which, by the way, was very tasty) i was also thinking about a discussion i had with lisa (my boss) on saturday about exercise, and how she considers power walking just part of her daily routine rather than actual exercise. actual exercise consists of pushing yourself and working up a sweat. i dont really agree with this, and still consider walking my favorite exercise ever, but just then it wasn't enough. there was a cheerful summer mix of electronic tunes playing on my mp3 player and the sun was warming my back and a breeze was cooling my face and i just had to do it. i told myself i'd go no more or less than 15 because there's no need to push yourself to injury when you're not used to something, but there's no point in stopping at 5 either.
damn it was nice. i wasn't huffing and puffing or having to push myself to keep going that much, and i had spandex on under my windpants so i wasnt bothered by my jiggly midsection. (thats the worst part about running during kickboxing- i hate jiggling. ewww.) felt good after. just for the record i dont know of anyone who runs because they LIKE it- they run because they like how it makes them feel afterwords. very very satisfied.
i feel like this was a big step for me- i'm really making progress. still, there's a long way to go. my midsection. >sigh< i swear i like every part of my body but that. my belly is gushy, i have love handles, and plenty of back fat. so help me god, BACK fat. a complete spare tire. i just want to be really really hot. hehe. now i know that the perfect body is kind of a myth and that everyone has a different perception of what one is, and i respect that. i will never be skinny (like to eat way too much to develop an eating disorder or whatever) and i dont want to be because that would look like crap on me. but i DO want to look and feel very fit. i'm all about learning to love your body and feeling comfortable in your own skin and all that, but i'd much rather just get rid of my belly fat than have to try to love it. haha. and, before anyone jumps down my throat about my motives, i have to say it has nothing to do with any guy or anyone else for that matter. just want to look in the mirror and think, 'damn, you sexy bitch!' heh. i really really REALLY want to have a nice belly- i think a six pack or protruding ribs would be just about as unattractive as a swollen pot belly on me- but i do think just a bit of gush and just a bit of tone would look very nice. i was walking around in a sports bra earlier and caught myself at a certain angle in the mirror and i totally saw a hint of one of those vertical lines you get on the sides of your belly buttons when you're toned. i got really really excited and ran to announce my discovery to b, who of course didnt give a shit. heh. anyway, hopefully my ab work in kickboxing helps a lot but i know i have to get rid of some of the gush on top of the muscle for it to show up more.
now, back to the running. i really really REALLy liked the way it made me feel. wonder how it would be if i got back into that very very very slowly. like.. since i'm already doing some high intensity exercise twice a week i'd only be down for running once a week or so for the time being. and maybe adding a minute each time or something. so that would be sixteen minutes next sunday. hmm. i really like this idea. that's not often enough to put too much strain on your joints- risk of injury is still very low if i warm up and stretch thoroughly.
but yeah, i dunno. that might have just been a one time thing- i'll just kick around the idea a bit.
i was out for a nice brisk walk for exercise when i started getting frustrated and feeling like i wasn't getting any. was also feeling slightly nasty after inhaling an entire pint of chocolate cookie crunch flavored tofutti. (which, by the way, was very tasty) i was also thinking about a discussion i had with lisa (my boss) on saturday about exercise, and how she considers power walking just part of her daily routine rather than actual exercise. actual exercise consists of pushing yourself and working up a sweat. i dont really agree with this, and still consider walking my favorite exercise ever, but just then it wasn't enough. there was a cheerful summer mix of electronic tunes playing on my mp3 player and the sun was warming my back and a breeze was cooling my face and i just had to do it. i told myself i'd go no more or less than 15 because there's no need to push yourself to injury when you're not used to something, but there's no point in stopping at 5 either.
damn it was nice. i wasn't huffing and puffing or having to push myself to keep going that much, and i had spandex on under my windpants so i wasnt bothered by my jiggly midsection. (thats the worst part about running during kickboxing- i hate jiggling. ewww.) felt good after. just for the record i dont know of anyone who runs because they LIKE it- they run because they like how it makes them feel afterwords. very very satisfied.
i feel like this was a big step for me- i'm really making progress. still, there's a long way to go. my midsection. >sigh< i swear i like every part of my body but that. my belly is gushy, i have love handles, and plenty of back fat. so help me god, BACK fat. a complete spare tire. i just want to be really really hot. hehe. now i know that the perfect body is kind of a myth and that everyone has a different perception of what one is, and i respect that. i will never be skinny (like to eat way too much to develop an eating disorder or whatever) and i dont want to be because that would look like crap on me. but i DO want to look and feel very fit. i'm all about learning to love your body and feeling comfortable in your own skin and all that, but i'd much rather just get rid of my belly fat than have to try to love it. haha. and, before anyone jumps down my throat about my motives, i have to say it has nothing to do with any guy or anyone else for that matter. just want to look in the mirror and think, 'damn, you sexy bitch!' heh. i really really REALLY want to have a nice belly- i think a six pack or protruding ribs would be just about as unattractive as a swollen pot belly on me- but i do think just a bit of gush and just a bit of tone would look very nice. i was walking around in a sports bra earlier and caught myself at a certain angle in the mirror and i totally saw a hint of one of those vertical lines you get on the sides of your belly buttons when you're toned. i got really really excited and ran to announce my discovery to b, who of course didnt give a shit. heh. anyway, hopefully my ab work in kickboxing helps a lot but i know i have to get rid of some of the gush on top of the muscle for it to show up more.
now, back to the running. i really really REALLy liked the way it made me feel. wonder how it would be if i got back into that very very very slowly. like.. since i'm already doing some high intensity exercise twice a week i'd only be down for running once a week or so for the time being. and maybe adding a minute each time or something. so that would be sixteen minutes next sunday. hmm. i really like this idea. that's not often enough to put too much strain on your joints- risk of injury is still very low if i warm up and stretch thoroughly.
but yeah, i dunno. that might have just been a one time thing- i'll just kick around the idea a bit.