deep in thought

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So, Crystal Cobb is now married and having a baby. I just got to thinking that I really don't want to meet anymore guys. I like Josh and I don't want any other guy. I know it's really sad. But, I think I'm just going to stop looking. If I happen to find someone else while I'm like smothering him, then so be it. If not, I guess I'll just have to be stuck liking him forever. I hope I can lose some weight. Yesterday he called me a bitch. He's also called me a cunt. He apologized about the bitch thing later. Sometimes, he can be so sweet. LIke, we went christmas shopping for his mom, and be bought me lunch. Other times, he really is an asshole-like when he cuts my hours for no reason. I barely got 30 hours this week. I've tried not to like him. I think I'm meant to like him even if we aren't ever meant to be. I guess he'll always have a part of my heart.

I never told you about christmas. Joshua got me a victoria's secret gift card. I got him a docking station for his sirius radio. He loves it. He wants another one for home. He's so freaking spoiled. I'm glad he likes it though.