I hate my brain

[picopa]

So, today Mr. Reimers informed me that if I didn't work at blockbuster he still wouldn't date me. He said it would be awkward. I think he was just saying no so I wouldn't quit or want to get fired. I got him to text a girl today. i actually did it for him. I'm not being selfish. He doesn't want me, so I have to find a way to get over him. Just seeing him everyday makes me like him more and more. I want to stop so bad. I don't know what it is about him. I told him not to wear the axe smell that i like around me and he still does it. He hid the m&ms from himself today so that he wouldn't eat them. When I kept asking him about his girl he started eating them. He still hasn't given me a valid reason why he doesn't like me. I guess friends is better than nothing at all. I want to watch movies with him at his house and stuff though. I don't think anyone will ever be like chris. What do I do?
If people couldn't think, do you know how easy my life would be? I wouldn't have to worry about getting a guy. I wouldn't care.