Josh is the best crush I've ever had (my favorite mistake?)
I guess I thought that Jeremiah would have been a cool boyfriend too. Now that I think of it, he'd probably be a boring boyfriend. It would be fun to go to concerts every other weekend. I dunno. Someone once told me that you never really get over your crushes, that you just learn how to deal with the fact that you'll never be with them. It's probably true. If I still saw Joe everyday, I'd probably still like him. I think I'm almost done liking guys that start with "J." Maybe I'll get the clue after Josh. There was Joe, John, Jon, jeremiah, Jeff, then Josh. That's sad. Let's think back. First guy I ever liked was Justin, then there was Shane, Nick Kurtz, Joe, Justin, Jeremiah, Josh. Those were my MAJOR crushes. I don't know why I just can't like a black guy, Why can't people date outside of their type? Josh isn't my type and I still like him. I don't even want to. I can't even answer his question about what I like about him. What would me and Josh do if we ever dated? Go to movies? That would pretty much be it because he works all the time and doesn't like doing anything else. I guess I like his innocence. I haven't met another guy like him. I liked Jeremiah because everyone said he was such a nice guy, but always got treated like crap by his gfs. I'll never understand why I liked Joe. If I ever saw Jon, I'd rape him. He's so sexy and I can't begin to tell you why. He's a big time loser too. I'd do just about anything for him. I wish I never liked Justin. I would say that out of all the guys that made me suffer, Josh was the best one. He was worth suffering over. I could die tomorrow and be satisfied with life because even though we couldn't date, he still made me happy. I enjoy working with him, he's really nice and super cool. He's sweet, nerdy and goofy. The only crush that I've had that still talks to me. Plus, he lets me borrow expensive stuff. He gives me happy thoughts. He makes me the happiest while feeling sad at the same time.