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I'm so fricking bored. The one day i get off and i can't find shit to do. But, anyway, my dad's in town (yay!). My mother made up this stupid rule that he can't come over unless she's at home. We're going to see my new campus tomorrow. I hope i like it cos i want to leave here so bad. I found a cute guy, but i will bet you One million dollars and live in debt for the rest of my life that he has a girlfriend. Every fucking guy that lives around here does. I'm sick of it. I'm writing about him now because my brother told me that with my ex i was like "he'll never like me, blah blah blah," so this time, i can actually look back and be like he seriously never liked me. (if that makes any fucking sense). I would rather be at work right now. How pathetic is that? I hate it here, i'm so miserable. How can someone wake up and live the same boring day over and over again? I understand you have to work, but isn't there anything else you can do besides watch tv or smoke pot? Is life that boring? I want to meet someone that isn't afraid to spend money. That likes to travel and go shopping or road trip for a weekend. No fucking body wants to do that around here. If they do, they don't want to do it with me. Am i really that bad of a person? i just want One person to tell me the honest to god truth. Because, if there is nothing wrong with me, what the fuck is wrong with me? I have no friends, i have no boyfriend. I think i'm a pretty nice person and i continue to read articles talking about guys liking personality. Guys tell me i'm pretty, but they never get my phone number or anything. At least not the ones i want to have my number. The ones that i want to call me that have my number don't call me. It's a lose lose situation. I'm screwed. I should just go kill myself. I seriously need to hurry up and change to a lesbian. I think i could find a girlfriend so fast. They'd probably treat me better than any guy too. I know i probably won't find a boyfriend in alabama. If i happen to let it slip that i like a white guy, they'll probably lynch me or something. Poison my food, or suffocate me in my sleep. Why do i have to like shallow white guys? are there any dating classes i can take?