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I have fucked up...
I have fucked up my life...
I can't seem to get anything I want out of life...
I have hurt my parents
I have hurt my future
I feel like I keep doing something wrong
I need to hold someone
I am too fucking self centered and I don't know why...
I feel like I keep making people turn away
I dont think I'm a bad guy but why do I feel like everyone thinks I am...
Am I unattractive? Am I boring? Am I unintelligent?
Why do I seem to fuck up everything I try to do in life..
I never seem to be able to get anything I desire because I always seem to screw things up...
I never believed that things could get this depressing...
The only thing I can rely on now is my music...but I am not even too sure about that anymore considering I probably fucked up my furture for the rest of my life...
FUCK...Why can't I just have someone to be there for? Why can't I stay on task and apply myself more in school work? Why do I have to be the ass of everyone's jokes...
I seriously believe that I have done something completely wrong...WHY IS IT THAT I CANT GET WHAT I WANT OUT OF LIFE!!!!!
I need someone to talk to right now...someone who actually cares...someone who I care about...