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[pick_me_up_tegz]

i'm so alone.
i'm so fucked up.
i'm not acting like myself.
i'm hurt and broken.
i'm tired of fighting and tired of just barely holding on.
i'm tired of feeling like i owe everyone.
i'm ugly and i'm not good enough.
i'm the only person i have, and i hate myself.

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[k_baby_smiles]

kendra's top 10 reasons why tegan is, contrary to the feelings exhibited in this post, one of the most fantabulously loved, needed, and important people i have ever known.

1. friendship. you still talked to me at LCA my first year when you thought i couldn't stand you, you didn't give up.
2. secrets. i trust you with anything and i know that you can keep it to yourself. you also trusted me when i needed most to feel trusted...remember our three lil points?
3. directional sense. you have the amazing ability to get anywhere from anywhere. and if one way has traffic, you have about 5 different routes in ur head. i always feel safe in the car with you, which doesn't happen with many people.
4. planning. you work really hard to get people together. although you often resented this fact, you were the string that held our group of friends together in high school. most times, if you didn't initiate plannage, nothing happened.
5. appropriate attire not needed. there are many people that one needs to be in the right mood to spend time with, you're not one of them. you always know exactly what to say, and when not to say anything at all.
6. you know everything. or at least mots everything that i can think to ask. you answer all my questions, no matter how stupid...and just for that you deserve some presidential award or something. you know why hair curls and all about trojans.
7. music. you should be DJ of the world. i admire the way you allow music to move and soothe your soul. you also have more music than like god...and have something for every mood ever.
8. mystery. its very hard to be friends with people for a long time and still manage to be allusive. i have decided that you don't really have a room, and you just live in the basement.
9. commitment. you never do things half way. you either do them or you don't. i think this is one of the most admirable traits you have.
10. the ass. if i were to become a lesbian, you'd be the first chick on my list to do. :o)

my comment is about twice as long as ur post...SOOOOOOO. in conclusion, i would like to mention that i love tegan :o)

[pick_me_up_tegz]

omg that made me ricockulously happy!!!!!
thank you sooooo much :-D i love you!!!
i will try to continue with those things...but the one i can promise is the ass.