Quick Dream
So....last night, I took some benedryll before bed and for some reason when I take cold medicine before bed I can remember my dreams more vividly.
Anyway, I had this dream last night and I coud only really remember the last pasts of it. I was at a party/dance type thing and after a certain time it started to become something else. The crowd was very dangerous and crazy and the thing is that we, who were at the party before, were supposed to leave before this new crowd started coming in and taking over....but, we didn't make it in time and I ended up leaving my jacket in an area of the dancehall that was already occupied by these people. Junior was in my dream also weirdly and he was like "No, don't go down there cuz they might try to hurt you." But, I went anyway, with a sorta guardian angel type person with me. I didn't know his name. He was tall, muscular....beautiful.....and while we were going down the stairs, we heard a gunshot....and I thought he was shot...but he wasn't and we kept on going. We made it thru the crowd and we found my jacket....we didn't really have to fight anyone off....but he protected me the whole time....we made it out alive....And he carried me home.....He was telling me how much he cared about me and couldn't see me hurt and how he felt like he didn't know if he satisfied me mentally or physically and I told him that he did. And we got back to my place, which was MY place, and we proceeded to make love.....in which, he turned into Cameron Mattson (Ryan) from All My Children, and then I woke up.....He's fucking HOT!!!!!!!!!
LMAO.
But, I wonder what that dream means......? I mean, I get the whole protective thing...and sometimes I do want to feel protected from all thats around me....protected from the negitive energy...protected from the reality of situations. Sometimes I wish I could be one of thoes people who live their lives just going day by day in a fog of just going with the flow....But, then...I wouldn't be who I am....I wouldn't be the artist that I want to be....I couldn't present myself to someone cuz I wouldn't know myself as well as I do.....So, what is it that I'm looking for? Especially in someone else....and will I ever find it? I love having dreams like that because I experience feelings that I've never felt before.....In that dream, I was in love with this guy.....this man...this hero of mine and maybe thats what I'm looking for....a hero. But, I don't know if there are any these days.......
Anyway, I had this dream last night and I coud only really remember the last pasts of it. I was at a party/dance type thing and after a certain time it started to become something else. The crowd was very dangerous and crazy and the thing is that we, who were at the party before, were supposed to leave before this new crowd started coming in and taking over....but, we didn't make it in time and I ended up leaving my jacket in an area of the dancehall that was already occupied by these people. Junior was in my dream also weirdly and he was like "No, don't go down there cuz they might try to hurt you." But, I went anyway, with a sorta guardian angel type person with me. I didn't know his name. He was tall, muscular....beautiful.....and while we were going down the stairs, we heard a gunshot....and I thought he was shot...but he wasn't and we kept on going. We made it thru the crowd and we found my jacket....we didn't really have to fight anyone off....but he protected me the whole time....we made it out alive....And he carried me home.....He was telling me how much he cared about me and couldn't see me hurt and how he felt like he didn't know if he satisfied me mentally or physically and I told him that he did. And we got back to my place, which was MY place, and we proceeded to make love.....in which, he turned into Cameron Mattson (Ryan) from All My Children, and then I woke up.....He's fucking HOT!!!!!!!!!
LMAO.
But, I wonder what that dream means......? I mean, I get the whole protective thing...and sometimes I do want to feel protected from all thats around me....protected from the negitive energy...protected from the reality of situations. Sometimes I wish I could be one of thoes people who live their lives just going day by day in a fog of just going with the flow....But, then...I wouldn't be who I am....I wouldn't be the artist that I want to be....I couldn't present myself to someone cuz I wouldn't know myself as well as I do.....So, what is it that I'm looking for? Especially in someone else....and will I ever find it? I love having dreams like that because I experience feelings that I've never felt before.....In that dream, I was in love with this guy.....this man...this hero of mine and maybe thats what I'm looking for....a hero. But, I don't know if there are any these days.......