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[phreak_21]

ever get this feeling in the bottom of your stomach that somethings wrong?...yea well i got that right now...and i'm sure i'll have it for a lil bit...my heart hurts...yes actually hurts...can you tell me why cause i'm not quite sure...ugh...life is so messed up right now...i cant even begin to explain it...it makes no sense...i've realized that life is just fucked up...theres nuttin you can do bout it...no matter how you try and control it or choose the way you wanna live or anything...its just not possible, i think its a game...life is just a game that fucks you over in the end...no matter how hard you try and win...the harder you play the more fucked up it gets...ppl fuck you over too...maybe theyre your opponents in the "game" haha...who can you really trust i wonder...what happens if you just give up?...haha i wonder...maybe i'll give up...dont mind me i've fuckin lost it for the night...literally...i have lost my mind...i cant explain anything anymore...i'm gonna go crawl into bed and think bout shit...no fuck it...me thinking bout stuff just makes me more crazy and upset and mad and sad and confused...so i'm gonna lay in bed, mind totally blank...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm gone..............................

p.s-i'm completely sober by the way, honestly