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My full name is Anemarie Moore. I wasn't blessed with a middle name. I turned 16 in November. I count on my friends, sometimes, a little too much. I have below normal self-confidence levels, and have absolutely no idea how to communicate with the opposite sex. I get jealous of everything. I involve myself in music to the point where I don't know

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Awe, well thanks, it was a lot of fun hanging out with you on Friday. Oh, wait, I fell alsleep at like 8:30 because you're a shitty friend, and I'm a dumbass for forgiving you for this shit everytime it happens. It'd be fucking different if you called me and said 'I don't want to hang out,' or something like that, but you don't. I just want to remind you, I called you at 4:00 on Friday afternoon, and you said 'We're going to the hockey game tonight, we can pick you up, and then you can spend then night at Ashley's with me after. I'll call you when we leave!' I also want to tell you that I got all fucking ready that night, (Took a shower, did my hair, ext.) even though I felt like shit, I just wanted to see you, and so, 7:00 comes around, and you still haven't called. I call you something like 3 or 4 times and you don't even fucking answer your phone. You must really love me with all your heart. So, I go online and about 10 people have an away message that says 'HoCkEy GaMe!!!$#' I love how you called me the next day to apologize, or give me a bull shit excuse on why you totally fucking ditched me too. Actually, I haven't heard from you at all since Friday at 4:00, now it's Sunday night. You're a really fucking great friend, Rachael. Maybe, if you cared a little more about other people, and not just your fucking self, you wouldn't have the problems you do. Examples: You and junior (I'm not a bitch, but you know what I'm talking about), and then him asking you about 'relationships' and you being totally against the idea, OR how we always fight about this shit because you've totally fucking changed in the past few months, and you think you can just fucking treat people like shit, and you can do whatever you feel like doing no matter who it's going to involve, not involve, or hurt. Truthfully, I don't think you even think about it. You've changed a lot, and I'm just sick of this bullshit, I'm sick of you lying to me, I'm sick of you ditching me, I'm sick of you being a total bitch to me just because YOU'VE had a bad day. The world doesn't revolve around you, and until you realize that, this shit is pretty much over.

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Why on earth would I call you and apologize when I had no clue I even called you in the first place? Don't bring the whole relationship thing with Junior up because it has absolutely nothing to do with any of this. I'm sick of your shit Anemarie, if I'm such a shitty friend why do you even put up with it still? Why would you even care anymore if I ditched you because what would it matter if I'm not that good of a friend? I don't have any problems, it's just this bull crap you throw back at me even though you "say" you don't care. It's like you're trying to prove to me all of your other friends are better because they don't ever ditch you, yet you always forgive me. It's not my fault you're like that, but I love you for it. I know it's wrong to say, but it's like no matter what I do, you're always there for me. I truly do love you Anemarie, with all of my heart and I'm really am sorry I keep doing this to you. I don't know what else I can say to you except for I am sorry even though I don't remember any of what happened Friday.

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How the hell could you not remember? I don't think I'll ever believe that. You don't think the Junior thing has anything to do with it, but it has everything to do with it. It has to do with how you've changed, it has to do with you being selfish, and not to mention that's all you ever want to do anymore, is be with Junior. It's hilarious, that you would EVER tell me that you were sick of my shit. You're fucking ridiculous for saying that. I'm not even going to argue that statement because you should be fully aware of how stupid it was. You've made it completely clear to me that I'm an idiot for dealing with your bull shit, and I have such a simple solution, I won't anymore. Don't say shit like 'Why do you even still put up with it?' Like I'm weak, and then say shit like 'You're going to throw away our friendship over something stupid?' For one, You're only my friend when YOU need me to be your friend. When I need you to be my friend, or when I want to hang out, look who is always left dissappointed. I just want to let you know it wasn't always like that. You didn't always ditch me for shit like smoking pot, or your sister's friends, or boys. I "say" I don't care anymore, because I really don't care, there's nothing to care about anymore.