Am I going Crazy?!
Sometimes I wonder if I am going crazy. I think I am not, but sometimes I wonder. I think it's mostly because I have a lot on my mind.
Item #1
I'm questioning me and Matt's relationship recently. We're going to be together for 1 year on Wed. and I keep thinking, "Do I want to be with him?" I know I love but there's just things that I know we need to work on. I don't know. Sometimes I just wish he'd try to understand things better. I know him and Caitlin are just friends and everything, but I wish he would understand why I worry about Cailtin wanting him to go with her to Europe. It makes me uncomfortable and he jsut can't see that. It's weird. It feels like it's that only thing that is wrong with our relationship. But maybe there is more wrong to it than I think. I have a lot on my plate and it's jsut getting fuller. Will I have time to deal with all that emotions? Plus, ever seince he tried to break up with me I have my doubts. Sometimes I don't wonder if, in my heart, I'm starting to move on and I can't decide what to do. Plus, he made a new Myspace page and didn't even invite me as a friend? Thanks, glad you put up pictures of you and caitlin before you put up picutres of you and me. Makes me feel all, you know, important and stuff. Surprised it says he's "in a relationship".
Item #2
Jen's leaving me. She's moving to Casa Grande. Another friend is leaving me. I can't believe some one else is leaving. I mean, it's not like she's leaving me on purpose or far away or anything, but still. I just hate having people leave me. I hate change. I can't deal with it.
I have so much more to write, but I'm tired and have anxiety up to body. I really want laura to call me.
Item #1
I'm questioning me and Matt's relationship recently. We're going to be together for 1 year on Wed. and I keep thinking, "Do I want to be with him?" I know I love but there's just things that I know we need to work on. I don't know. Sometimes I just wish he'd try to understand things better. I know him and Caitlin are just friends and everything, but I wish he would understand why I worry about Cailtin wanting him to go with her to Europe. It makes me uncomfortable and he jsut can't see that. It's weird. It feels like it's that only thing that is wrong with our relationship. But maybe there is more wrong to it than I think. I have a lot on my plate and it's jsut getting fuller. Will I have time to deal with all that emotions? Plus, ever seince he tried to break up with me I have my doubts. Sometimes I don't wonder if, in my heart, I'm starting to move on and I can't decide what to do. Plus, he made a new Myspace page and didn't even invite me as a friend? Thanks, glad you put up pictures of you and caitlin before you put up picutres of you and me. Makes me feel all, you know, important and stuff. Surprised it says he's "in a relationship".
Item #2
Jen's leaving me. She's moving to Casa Grande. Another friend is leaving me. I can't believe some one else is leaving. I mean, it's not like she's leaving me on purpose or far away or anything, but still. I just hate having people leave me. I hate change. I can't deal with it.
I have so much more to write, but I'm tired and have anxiety up to body. I really want laura to call me.