Semi-Annual Update (losing weight, the hard way)
Looks like it's that time again. 8 months in 30 seconds:
Mini-me didn't get in to TAMS (due to incomplete application - two teachers did not turn in recommendations). Her braces are working, teeth are aligning. She just got bands connecting the upper and lower teeth. Ouch! She's gone fairly boy crazy and it's good to see some normal teenagery from her. But it's also a tad scary. I kinda hoped this day would never come!
I've been working a LOT. My boss got fired in December and on Jan 2nd my VP of Operations sat me down to warn me that unless I change his opinion of me I'm next. So I've stopped kicking ass at work and started kissing ass and taking names. Wish I got paid overtime, I could use the money. I'm saving up for elective surgery scheduled for July 10th.
In the last 18 months I've lost almost 70 pounds and gone from a size 22 (ok, actually a 24) to a size 14. I don't want to be some waif-like twig who's afraid to eat a Twinkie now and then. That's why I forgive myself all of my very extensive diet "cheats." The point of me doing this (losing weight) is to feel better, feel better about myself, and to enjoy my life. I can't do any of that if I'm feeling guilty over food or denying myself the things I enjoy eating.
In related news: I've started getting more compliments at work about my appearance. All of you on my friend's list will not have experienced this first hand, but when you're as fat as I was/am it is virtually impossible to not look dumpy. When you're so big you almost have to wear a mumu you just don't get many compliments about your appearance. And I didn't realize it at the time but I'VE MISSED THAT. Undoubtedly there are better things to be complimented on than outward appearance but it feels good and I don't mind saying it. For the last couple of months I've been getting remarks at work like "I can tell you've lost weight, you're looking good." That's always nice to hear. But I always sort of took it as "You're still enormous, but not nearly so grotesque as you use to be." This week - the first week I'm wearing my 14's in public - I'm getting compliments that are more along the lines of "You look great" than "You look great compared to the repulsive, unholy wreck you use to be."
So I feel stupid posting a journal entry almost entirely about me losing a few pounds but outside of work (which is even more boring) that's all I've got going on. Don't judge me until you've been a size 24, too.
Mini-me didn't get in to TAMS (due to incomplete application - two teachers did not turn in recommendations). Her braces are working, teeth are aligning. She just got bands connecting the upper and lower teeth. Ouch! She's gone fairly boy crazy and it's good to see some normal teenagery from her. But it's also a tad scary. I kinda hoped this day would never come!
I've been working a LOT. My boss got fired in December and on Jan 2nd my VP of Operations sat me down to warn me that unless I change his opinion of me I'm next. So I've stopped kicking ass at work and started kissing ass and taking names. Wish I got paid overtime, I could use the money. I'm saving up for elective surgery scheduled for July 10th.
In the last 18 months I've lost almost 70 pounds and gone from a size 22 (ok, actually a 24) to a size 14. I don't want to be some waif-like twig who's afraid to eat a Twinkie now and then. That's why I forgive myself all of my very extensive diet "cheats." The point of me doing this (losing weight) is to feel better, feel better about myself, and to enjoy my life. I can't do any of that if I'm feeling guilty over food or denying myself the things I enjoy eating.
In related news: I've started getting more compliments at work about my appearance. All of you on my friend's list will not have experienced this first hand, but when you're as fat as I was/am it is virtually impossible to not look dumpy. When you're so big you almost have to wear a mumu you just don't get many compliments about your appearance. And I didn't realize it at the time but I'VE MISSED THAT. Undoubtedly there are better things to be complimented on than outward appearance but it feels good and I don't mind saying it. For the last couple of months I've been getting remarks at work like "I can tell you've lost weight, you're looking good." That's always nice to hear. But I always sort of took it as "You're still enormous, but not nearly so grotesque as you use to be." This week - the first week I'm wearing my 14's in public - I'm getting compliments that are more along the lines of "You look great" than "You look great compared to the repulsive, unholy wreck you use to be."
So I feel stupid posting a journal entry almost entirely about me losing a few pounds but outside of work (which is even more boring) that's all I've got going on. Don't judge me until you've been a size 24, too.